• TOR Is back online at suicidabvrputryeg3mxdwwtwnv3eqj2koztuaiko5zn5rzodtencnad.onion

    Mirror site: sanctionedsuicide.site

    If your ISP has blocked the site, you can download TOR to circumvent any blocks. Be sure to follow your local laws and regulations.
  • Hello Guest,

    Another update, OFCOM has reached out directly. We have made the decision to make all content unavailable in the UK for the time being. People from the UK will still be allowed to register, but content that violates the Online Safety Bill will not be viewable to the public. This officially puts us in compliance with the Onlien Safety Bill.

    We would highly recommend that all users from the UK get some sort of VPN, and you should petition your lawmakers to let them know how you feel about this piece of draconian legislation.
miss soon-to-die

miss soon-to-die

Witness of Hades
Oct 11, 2023
In middle school, I was always hated. I never really understood why. A passed note here and there, "JR is a slut." and people scribbling all over my backpacks with black Sharpie whenever I left the room. Pencils being thrown at me when I'm trying to do my schoolwork and being ignored and slandered when I stand up for myself. A whole room of people who knocked me to the floor and started kicking me while I laid there.

I remember the day when I learned that there was a whole classroom of people who planned on jumping me behind the school. I remember the times I stood behind the school planning when I was going to kill myself. I remember the people who were nice to me, but in a really passive way and they'd forget about me as soon as they graduated. I remember in elementary school, I promised two of my classmates on graduation day that we'd all meet up at the next school carnival even though we'd all be in middle school. My shitty father dismissed my question of whether or not I could go see them there just because "you're already graduated, you don't need to go there."

Sometimes I wish I didn't have friends. They are the only reason I haven't killed myself yet and at the same time I'm glad I do because if I do kill myself anyway they'll be hurt.

I miss my mom. I remember when she failed to stay sober for our court-appointed visitation sessions that were arranged for me as a birthday present, and one day she showed up stoned out of her mind and throwing up on the therapists car. But at least she tried. She stayed clean for a couple months until that happened. My dad never tried, and always blames me for every little argument we have and claims that I'm the one who starts them. I hope he dies a slow, painful death.

Nembutal dreams

Sep 30, 2023
Schoolkids are often sadistic little creatures. Backstabbers and bullies everywhere.
I had a terrible time at school too, I think schools need to be much harder on bullies instead of doing very little to protect vulnerable children.
Sorry you are going through this and sorry about your dad too.


Mar 1, 2023
Those sound like awful people. I'm sorry you had to go through that. School was a nightmare for me, too. I hated every single day of it. The amount of people who got off on trying to make somebody's life miserable for fun was utterly atrocious. I don't believe children should ever be put together in an environment that is so unsupervised like this.
The situation with your family sounds awful, too. You had to go through a lot of suffering just to stay alive, it seems. Your strength is commendable. But of course, it would have been nice to not have these obstacles. You deserved a lot of love and care. It's pleasant to hear that you got friends to support you, though, who seem to love you a lot. It speaks to your character that people want to be around you.