Held out Hope for 10 years

[Agninoir]

M21 This month marks the 10 year anniversary of me forest attempting suicide. Since then I have been kicked out by my family for being gay, lost all my friends to COVID and normal growing pain, lost my job and have lost all hope for the future. Everyone keeps saying the it will get better but they never do. I want to feel free for the first time in my life.

 

[Heading to Darkness]

Hi
It is very sad to hear of your loss during covid, i indeed lost my father. Worse is that your family kicked you out for just being who you are. It's not like you made a lifestyle choice to steal from them, rob a bank or murder someone!, i think that is unforgiveable of any family. However I think you must also be aware that there is no proof that you will feel anything, let alone feel free. Those who have ctb of course can't tell us.
Whatever your future holds think of everything and I wish you peace in your decision

 

[WAITING TO DIE]

I hoped for things to get better for longer than I care to remember, yet they never did.
Sorry your family treated you so badly.

 

[iDontKnowWhat]

I'm sorry for your losses. Before you do this, be 100% sure, because if you give up in the middle of the act you could ask for help and then be left with permanent injury. I, for example, am 100% sure I want to do this and I have set a date. Making decisions consciously and not on impulse is essential. I don't wish suicide on anyone. I hope for everyone's recovery. I hope that you can find some way to wellness, in any form, and through that, you can find your happiness in your own way.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's really understandable just wanting to be free from all suffering, existence is just too cruel, it's dreadful how people have to suffer so much.

 

[wheretfami]

M21 This month marks the 10 year anniversary of me forest attempting suicide. Since then I have been kicked out by my family for being gay, lost all my friends to COVID and normal growing pain, lost my job and have lost all hope for the future. Everyone keeps saying the it will get better but they never do. I want to feel free for the first time in my life.

People say "things get better" then do nothing to help. Lil pat on the head, a quick "there, there", and their job is done. No conversion. No selflessness. Tf.