MsMaudlin

MsMaudlin

This is the fierce last stand of all I am
Dec 8, 2019
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So today I went to the hospital to see about weight loss surgery, whilst there the Dr noticed I was grey around the lips, so now I need an urgent heart scan.
This has made me realise I need to get on and CTB, instead of wasting peoples time with these appointments when I'm aiming to die anyway.
 
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Jan 26, 2020
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And that is the reason why I do not visit my psychiatrist anymore. What if it will only get worse...
 
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Thereisnothing

Thereisnothing

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So today I went to the hospital to see about weight loss surgery, whilst there the Dr noticed I was grey around the lips, so now I need an urgent heart scan.
This has made me realise I need to get on and CTB, instead of wasting peoples time with these appointments when I'm aiming to die anyway.
Try not panic too much, it might be nothing. Strangely my mum used to have phases where she had grey round her lips and then would go again, she didn't have heart problems. Nver knew what caused it........thinking of you and hope the hear scan will come back with good results, do let us know. :hug:
 
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MsMaudlin

MsMaudlin

This is the fierce last stand of all I am
Dec 8, 2019
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I'm praying for a massive heart attack to save me having to CTB!
 
faust

faust

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I'm praying for a massive heart attack to save me having to CTB!
Fortunately or unfortunately it is not too likely to happen. I know it is difficult for you, but if you want to go, let it be with dignity. Plus I don't want you to have any health problems :hug:
 
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Jean4

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Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
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I had Bariatric Surgery if you have any way questions. :)
 
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I'm praying for a massive heart attack to save me having to CTB!
I lost my precious dad in December, he first had small heart attack then massive one..........I am devastated. PLEASE however low you feel don't wish this on yourself. I have so many health problems that every day is so hard and I am getting worse, so scary for me as am totally alone now. I do understand where you are coming from, but you need to go peacefully not in bad way, you owe yourself that. I have heart problems and its horrid.
 
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Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
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I lost my precious dad in December, he first had small heart attack then massive one..........I am devastated. PLEASE however low you feel don't wish this on yourself. I have so many health problems that every day is so hard and I am getting worse, so scary for me as am totally alone now. I do understand where you are coming from, but you need to go peacefully not in bad way, you owe yourself that. I have heart problems and its horrid.
You aren't alone. You have your family here. Always remember that. :heart:
 
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You aren't alone. You have your family here. Always remember that. :heart:
Thank you so much........brings tears to my eyes you saying that, mean such a lot to me xx
 
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Thank you so much........brings tears to my eyes you saying that, mean such a lot to me xx
And I'm here if you ever need me or want to talk. Just PM. ;)
 
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