Trying to tie up a few things in these final days. I am having great difficulty doing anything at this point. Bills, online accounts, what to do with my wallet and the typical cards in it. I feel overwhelmed by everything, even small things. The main thing is to send what little money I have to my adult child who struggles to lay their monthly bills. They are the only thing that matters, they are everything to me.
My default on everything else is becoming "screw it", what does it matter. I cried over all of this two nigjts ago, feeling like a complete failure at even this.
It all feels like a burden. More bad news at today's medical appt. adds to it. I feel so horribly down, I cry so often. All I think about now is ending my suffering but I have to get more done somehow. For my kid if nothing else.
My default on everything else is becoming "screw it", what does it matter. I cried over all of this two nigjts ago, feeling like a complete failure at even this.
It all feels like a burden. More bad news at today's medical appt. adds to it. I feel so horribly down, I cry so often. All I think about now is ending my suffering but I have to get more done somehow. For my kid if nothing else.
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