Since I'm the one paying for it, I decided to be 100% honest during my conversations with psychiatrists / psychologists. I told them about my previous attempts and current plans. So now I'm getting sent to the ward too, in a week roughly.
Bold move. I hope it works out for you.
Personally I have zero confidence in people like that and based on the sound principle of never making the same mistake again I will never place my trust in their hands again. That being said if you consider trusting them the only alternative to CTB it's probably not a bad idea to try it. The placebo-effect is real after all.
Despite all this, I will say I think some people can benefit from therapy and there are some ok therapists.
It's a well known fact humans are a social species and generally benefit from talking about their lives/problems and expressing their emotions to a friendly ,sympathetic person. The only problem is that therapists consider themselves specialists who only acquired their expertise through years of academic study and training.
Thid is simply untrue: 'psychotherapy' is nothing more than social interaction and all that is needed is a reasonable IQ, a slightly higher EQ and the willingness to listen and act interested.
Case in point: I used to see a humanistic counselor (she worked for a humanistic/free thought organization which in my country is sponsored by the government like the major religions) and she majored in philosophy and had no special training in psychotherapy. She was respectful, listened attentively and offered her honest opinion without any psychobabble or innane theories that don't hold water. The result: I began to trust her and these talks helped. I even told her I seriously considered suicide and she replied like any decent, open-minded, intelligent individual with a heart would: she encouraged me to explore the issue further, she told me she firmly believed in every individual's right to self-determination and said she would be sad if I'd do it. She helped me through some very difficult times when I had no-one else to talk to and confide in. I love her for it, I really do. She treated me like a human-being and not a test subject that had to be analyzed by the standard of some dogmatic ideology.
If that organization hadn't stopped offering these services I would still be going there.