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sybilsxys
he / she
- Jul 8, 2024
- 7
it's weird. i know that i have a lot of goals i want to accomplish within my life and i do have the potential to accomplish them, but i would rather CTB than give that to the world.
my whole life, i've been wanting to become a writer and do things related to writing, but i've realized that this isn't really a valued skill in the country/society i live in anymore (at least not in the way i want to do it). it feels like i'm still here just to appease people around me or because i have some misguided hope that things will improve. in reality, things have only continued to get worse.
i do hate a lot of aspects of my life, but i still hold on to this want to continue to do things. i feel like at this point it is just some weird extension of survival instinct because i know deep down i don't want to exist like this anymore. i just feel so lost.
my whole life, i've been wanting to become a writer and do things related to writing, but i've realized that this isn't really a valued skill in the country/society i live in anymore (at least not in the way i want to do it). it feels like i'm still here just to appease people around me or because i have some misguided hope that things will improve. in reality, things have only continued to get worse.
i do hate a lot of aspects of my life, but i still hold on to this want to continue to do things. i feel like at this point it is just some weird extension of survival instinct because i know deep down i don't want to exist like this anymore. i just feel so lost.