It really sucks having no redeeming qualities at all. When you look at characters in fiction that are losers they always have some redeeming quality to make them seem like a person that you can connect with, because it's hard to connect with someone who does nothing and is nothing. I have absolutely nothing. I've grown up boring, without talent, unintelligent, unskilled, weak and unattractive. It feels like I have nothing to offer in the world and nothing I can use to make my life enjoyable. People tell you that you can do whatever you want with life, but what are you supposed to do when you don't gravitate naturally towards anything? Feels like living is pointless like this.
Unfortunately i can't offer any words of comfort or advice, because i'm in the exact same boat.
What i used to call hobbies and interests now are nothing more than escapisms and distractions from my own conscious.
Nothing can really grab by attention for more than a week.
Being like this also makes choosing a career hard, since you have to do it for the rest of your life.
It's work, if i get bored out of things that are supposed to be enjoyable, imagine how i feel about that, i don't get how people get passionate about their careers.
The fiction you've mentioned also doesn't help, since it gives us this idea when we're young that we're special and will get a happy ending.
Then the "Real World" shows up and crushes those illusions.
Like i've said, i don't know i can say to make you feel ok, i wish i did tho, i'm very sorry.
I guess the only thing you can take from my reply is that, well, you're not alone in feeling like this, there are people who understand you.
*hugs*
You are soo lovely, I think it is a shame such a young girl have no will to live. My English is not good enough but you are desperate, and I dont no realy why? You have angst and no pain, or what is your darkest motivation to kill your self? You need someone to talk, I am right?
I imagine that there's a lot of people in this website that feel like
@cryptic__egg and i, so if there's any advice you can give, everyone would appreciate it dearly.
Also, your english is understandable.
