Having a really bad day

[Lostnotfound]

Nothing unusual happening, just another day in hell. Just not coping with it today :(

 

[oopswronglife]

Nothing unusual happening, just another day in hell. Just not coping with it today :(

"Hi Satan...another hot one eh?"

I get it and every day is some variation of bad. I count my "blessings" as when it's "less bad" because it's never good. There was a time it was normal and even good at times, and the bad was an event or less common. Now it's flipped entirely to the point good has been pushed right off the map.

The thing about coping that people not in our shoes don't get is you can't cope 24/7. For them its like above where its mostly normal or good at times and actual bad isn't the regular thing so of course they can cope in smaller doses. When you are forced to cope all the time you use up your reserves and bad things happen. I've never been able to get anyone who could help to understand this. Denial I guess.

 

[BPD Barbie]

Hey lovely,

Sorry you're having a bad day today. Write today off, focus on tomorrow. We are here to support you through the bad days. If you need someone to talk to, I'm always around. Keep your head up, sending you lots of love

 

[PrettyMoose]

On the bright side, it's just another day closer to death, whether we go by our own hand or not. So there is always the eternal peaceful sleep to look forward to. There will be no need for coping when we get there.

 

[Lostnotfound]

Well i had hoped to out this life in the next week or so and I had been just 'holding on' until I had everything I needed to CTB but its looking very much like my timescales are not possible and its put me in an impossible position and now reading another thread is scaring me even more. I just want it over with and really feel I cant hold on much more.

 

[Lostandfound7]

I feel u honey..it's one of those days for me too where I just wanna lay in bed n cry..

I look forward to nights cuz I get to sleep it away.few more hrs to go..I'm hoping tomor is a betta day for the both of us.Sending love n strength ur way .

 

[oxymoron]

Nothing unusual happening, just another day in hell. Just not coping with it today :(

Been this way since Nov 2018.

 

[Lostnotfound]

I feel u honey..it's one of those days for me too where I just wanna lay in bed n cry..

I look forward to nights cuz I get to sleep it away.few more hrs to go..I'm hoping tomor is a betta day for the both of us.Sending love n strength ur way .

Trying to stop the crying cos once i start i just dont stop and I end up making myself really ill - panic attacks and all sorts so I have to try to stay a little calm but I know what you mean. I went through a phase of taking sleeping pill - sleeping, waking up and taking the next pill but my body got used to them and the pills were only working for about 3 or 4 hours so I was taking 5 or 6 a day when its only meant to be 1. Got myself off them as didnt want to be reliant and wanted to be able to take them when waiting for the bus

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

If you can, dig in your nails and hang on. Your plans are still there and impulsive decisions can cause more harm than good. But you know this.

I know these days. They test our very souls, and make us start looking around for the exit. I'm so sorry you're having one today.

On my tough days, I often go back to the very first pages of this forum and read from the beginning of the time here. It helps me somehow. It's like being surrounded by family, some here and some gone, all the while allowing me to focus on the end prize. Maybe that will help you pass the time you have remaining, too.

((((Hugs))))

 

[Jean4]

We have all been there and understand. Did something trigger you, or you are like me and the wind can set me off for no reason lol.

 

[Lostnotfound]

If you can, dig in your nails and hang on. Your plans are still there and impulsive decisions can cause more harm than good. But you know this.

I know these days. They test our very souls, and make us start looking around for the exit. I'm so sorry you're having one today.

On my tough days, I often go back to the very first pages of this forum and read from the beginning of the time here. It helps me somehow. It's like being surrounded by family, some here and some gone, all the while allowing me to focus on the end prize. Maybe that will help you pass the time you have remaining, too.

((((Hugs))))

I try to avoid a lot of the posts on here as it shows me what I have lost. Most people seem to have people around them and I have no one and that hurts when I was so close to my family. I am spending my days until I can get SN avoiding life in its entirety really and wishing the hours away.

We have all been there and understand. Did something trigger you, or you are like me and the wind can set me off for no reason lol.

I woke up

 

[Lostandfound7]

Trying to stop the crying cos once i start i just dont stop and I end up making myself really ill - panic attacks and all sorts so I have to try to stay a little calm but I know what you mean. I went through a phase of taking sleeping pill - sleeping, waking up and taking the next pill but my body got used to them and the pills were only working for about 3 or 4 hours so I was taking 5 or 6 a day when its only meant to be 1. Got myself off them as didnt want to be reliant and wanted to be able to take them when waiting for the bus

Sometimes the crying help me to release n then I feel a lil betta til the next bout..lol

Yeah don't take anymore of the pills..

I have Tylenol pm buy it's only 3:30pm here n I still have lots of school work to do. So I'm stuck having to "stay woke"..smh

 

[Lostnotfound]

I have sleeping pills here but I'm hoping to get hold of SN soon so I dont want my body used to them so they knock me out. Its 8.30pm here - i have nothing to do all day everyday so I can sit and wallow all day which is why it just gets worse and worse

 

[Jean4]

I try to avoid a lot of the posts on here as it shows me what I have lost. Most people seem to have people around them and I have no one and that hurts when I was so close to my family. I am spending my days until I can get SN avoiding life in its entirety really and wishing the hours away.

I woke up

If it makes you feel better, I am older than you. Had nobody until I came here. Know that you will always have us here.

 

[Lostnotfound]

If it makes you feel better, I am older than you. Had nobody until I came here. Know that you will always have us here.

My youngest is blind and was born blind and people always said she is better off because she cant miss what she didn't have and I didnt see it. Now I dont have my girls and my life I know what they mean.

 

[Jean4]

My youngest is blind and was born blind and people always said she is better off because she cant miss what she didn't have and I didnt see it. Now I dont have my girls and my life I know what they mean.

If you don't want to answer, please don't.. but why don't you have your girls? Do you still see them?

 

[Lostnotfound]

If you don't want to answer, please don't.. but why don't you have your girls? Do you still see them?

Go pm with this - happy to talk but not public