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tieiwi

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Dec 11, 2021
242
It's hard to fall asleep because that's when I have to actually face my thoughts. I'm always on my phone consuming media just so I don't pay attention to whatever my mind comes up with. Then when I wake up I feel immediate dread. For me it's worse when I wake up. Like damn I really have to live another day of this shit…
 
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Snake of Eden

Snake of Eden

“Ye shall be as gods..🍎 🐍”
Jun 22, 2021
2,473
This is my daily life as well. I have no suggestions on how to make it better. I wish you well
 
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ashfall

ashfall

Member
Jan 1, 2022
47
I find it impossible to go to sleep as well. I'm usually in bed by 11 pm but I don't actually pass out until 4 am at the earliest. I feel like there's a delicate balance in my head during the day where my mind is kind of resting on a knife's edge but if I think in the wrong direction it all goes wrong. At night though there's nothing to distract me from my thoughts and the problematic ones always break through eventually. I have 2-3 panic attacks a week and they are always at night. I am so sick of it all.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
44,925
Sometimes I find it hard to sleep because I am overthinking everything and waking up can be a horrible feeling. Every night I hope to fall asleep and never wake. I understand how you feel, this life can be so depressing. I just want to be free from it all. I wish you the best.
 
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Suicidebydeath

Suicidebydeath

No chances to be happy - dead inside
Nov 25, 2021
3,558
Me too. Plus I just woke up myself because I thought someone needed me but nope, lol. I feel physically awful for no reason. Yeah! Just go to stay awake a few more hours.
 
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Myono93

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May 2, 2021
22
Going to sleep isn't terrible but I always wake up tired and miserable. I'm most depressed first thing in the morning
 
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Chovyfan

Member
Dec 31, 2021
29
I feel the same. These days I'm unable to sleep at all unless I pass out from staying awake for a day or two.
 
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Crazy4u

Crazy4u

Enlightened
Sep 29, 2021
1,318
I sympathize. I don't even want to sleep. I like to stay awake and keep track of my misery
 
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Death is beautiful

Death is beautiful

Warlock
May 20, 2021
793
It's easy enough for me to fall asleep, but it's very difficult to wake up, I don't even know what to do after I wake up, everything doesn't make sense, my life is meaningless, so there's no point in waking up. I wish I could sleep forever
 
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freedompass

freedompass

Warlock
Jan 27, 2021
769
Yup waking up is the worst especially when I'm in a low phase (bipolar here). On the whole late afternoon/evening is when the depression lifts a bit. I don't have too much trouble sleeping on the whole.
 
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LONE WOLF.

LONE WOLF.

PUNISHER.
Nov 4, 2020
1,990
I find that l sleep easier during the day than l do at nighttime?
 
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xoxo13

xoxo13

Member
Jan 9, 2022
13
waking up is definitely when i feel the most dread
 
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