Have you told anybody in your life that you feel suicidal?

[Sigh_Sigh_Sigh]

Have you ever told your family, friends or colleagues that you feel suicidal?

I let it out to my colleagues one night when I was drunk.

 

[miserabletires9]

One person in real life, sort of...

And the funny thing is it is the guy that pushed me over the edge to ctb..

and he said to me "he believes that if someone really wants to kill themselves, they wouldn't tell anyone. they would just do it"

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Nope, although I have no one to tell, anyway. But, even if I did, I would never tell anyone. The only reason to tell someone in your family, or your friends, is if you're on the fence about wanting to CTB and are making a last-ditch effort to save yourself. If you have thought it through, though, and are certain you want to CTB, nothing good will come from telling family or friends of your intention.

 

[spøgelse]

My mother pressured it out of me once at least 4 or 5 years ago, but that's it.

 

[miserabletires9]

Nope, although I have no one to tell, anyway. But, even if I did, I would never tell anyone. The only reason to tell someone in your family, or your friends, is if you're on the fence about wanting to CTB and are making a last-ditch effort to save yourself. If you have thought it through, though, and are certain you want to CTB, nothing good will come from telling family or friends of your intention.

i told the person because I wanted him to say yes to what I want him to do.. which he still didn't.

 

[MewtwoIsAlive]

One person in real life, sort of...

And the funny thing is it is the guy that pushed me over the edge to ctb..

and he said to me "he believes that if someone really wants to kill themselves, they wouldn't tell anyone. they would just do it"

Cruel. Ig this is your ex or something?

 

[anywhere_else]

One person in real life, sort of...

And the funny thing is it is the guy that pushed me over the edge to ctb..

and he said to me "he believes that if someone really wants to kill themselves, they wouldn't tell anyone. they would just do it"

Snap. Almost word for word with the added insult that "I'm just dramatic."

Other than her, I've told my best friend who just can't accept that what I feel is my choice. It's hard. It's not a rational thought for those that have never felt the depth of our suffering.

 

[illmissmydogthatsit]

My parents know I want to CTB. They've tried to get me help but the "help" didn't help (therapy is largely a gimmick). I don't tell friends or extended family because people don't get it and I don't want them to change their opinion of me because of it. Suicide is not socially acceptable. You can say you're depressed as long as you downplay it somewhat- but as soon as you mention the S word everything changes.
If I had a best friend/really close person, they would know about it. But casual friends- no way.

 

[Twntysvn]

No, i never told anyone in my life.

 

[unnormal9]

Do you breathe air? Is the sky blue?
Yeah

 

[whitherrvbound]

I had 2 attempts in the past so my family was aware of my situation. As for friends and comengoers no need to they knew i was depressive but its hard for others to understand bipolar episodes. And ive been trying to convince my family to let go of me since october, trying to explain them its for the best thats how lost i am fucking hell.

 

[EndJstifiesTheMeans]

Yes, everyone knows that because i attempted to ctb in the past

 

[TapeMachine]

I recently told one of my brothers, in an off-hand sort of way.

I said to him (via text conversation): "I'm thinking about leaving my current home situation and partner. I can either leave and try to get back on my own two feet; or I can stay and end up killing myself. I think I'm gonna go with the former: leave."

Whether he realized just how serious I was being in that text or not, I don't know. But he is the only irl person to whom I've mentioned my suicidality.

 

[Vizzy]

Have you ever told your family, friends or colleagues that you feel suicidal?

I let it out to my colleagues one night when I was drunk.

If you want to say that you are suicidal to your family and friends which mean you looking for help and not ready for ctb

I strongly advise you don't do ctb because you gonna fail in your attempt

 

[UsagiDrop]

Of course, when I wanted help. I even showed it to them when I attempted. And when I was in primary and high school, I was literally known and bullied for being suicidal (so much so that they reported to the office for holding a pair of scissors lol). I think people that have met me in real life fairly recently wouldn't know, but everyone that knows me before a certain point in my life automatically knows my sorrows and they definitely do not take me seriously because they think I'm doing well or better than them, even though I'm really not. I've had a few people laugh at me, or call me stupid, dramatic, or selfish for it, and that hurts. I have one friend that really understands and might support my decision to leave even though they will miss me. Most people that know are supportive of me, but not my desire to die. Nobody knows that I have a plan and backup plans in mind, and I will keep it that way.

 

[Meatshell]

Does my dog count? Otherwise, no. I don't get drunk, so I'm safe.
Sometimes I feel like telling someone. But I don't see a reason to, I don't want help. Not "that" kind of help.

 

[leaf23]

Have you ever told your family, friends or colleagues that you feel suicidal?

I let it out to my colleagues one night when I was drunk.

I haven't confided in anyone outside this site. Too afraid they'll stop me.

May I ask what happened after you told them? Did they take you seriously or did they think you were just exaggerating and it was just drunk talk?

 

[AerialBoundaries]

Never outrightly, but have strongly hinted at it when blackout drunk. I played it off when asked about it as just "being wasted".

I'm usually very guarded. It's one of the reasons I'm looking to severely cut down or eliminate my drinking entirely. I don't like being vulnerable.

I don't think it'd come as much as a surprise to anybody if I was found dead one day.

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

Yeah, a few friends, my ex (girlfriend at the time), my mom (smacked me the first time I said it but she was a druggie at the time and doesn't recall it at all, now she's sober and hugely empathetic towards me), and I think that's about it. I think other family members know I have it rough, but not to what extent.

 

[ringo99]

I did. To my mom. HUGE mistake. Her solution was to get me to exercise. Never asked why I was depressed enough to want to ctb in the first place. Then she sent me to a so called therapist who instead of talking to me like a normal person was gave me a bunch of stupid tests to fill out. Dropped her immediately. Mental health personnel in my country are mostly incompetent.

The WORST part was that my mom blurted out how I felt in front of my closest relatives. Never been so mortified in my life at such a huge betrayal of trust. Everyone I used to care about now walk on eggshells around me and it's so obvious. I still love my mom but there's absolutely no way I'm ever confiding verbally in another person again about how I feel. SS is the only safe space I have now. When I eventually reach the stage when I have to ctb this is is the only place I'm ever going to reveal it.

 

[ctwc]

A handful of people, but it's not taken very seriously I suppose

 

[Sweet Tart]

I feel like it's an open secret in my life. I've never said I feel suicidal in the present moment but I've talked about having felt this way in the past. I don't want to be hospitalized.

I want to talk about it and explore my feelings and thoughts, so I can better understand what I'm experiencing. I don't think I will recover by keeping this locked up inside myself. I don't know if recovery is an option and I'm trying to find out. That's why I finally registered on this site after looking at it off and on for a few years.

 

[FuneralCry]

No and it would be a terrible idea doing such a thing in this anti-suicide society where most people refuse to accept suicide as being a valid option. Sadly we exist in a world where this subject cannot be discussed openly as suicidal people end up being punished for wanting to die, they end up being locked in horrific psych wards where they just suffer more and more, it's such a repulsive world and all those anti-suicide people certainly lack any compassion. They just want to make people prisoners to this existence.

 

[Nights]

I told my mother during my first suicide attempt when i was 11 year old after she find out some pills were lost and i thought i was over, and she was trying to call the ambulance but they didnt came luckily, and some of my friends in the internet (i no longer have contact with them anymore), since that time i learned how to keep my feelings and intentions hidden from everybody