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yousaidimsweet

yousaidimsweet

your star student
Nov 30, 2024
41
i love love love listening to music and can't go a single day without listening to at least one song. i attend university so whenever i'm walking to class, i'll pull up something to listen to. in the car i'm listening to music, while brushing my teeth, while working out, and while i'm bored. it's an integral part of my life and wellbeing.

earlier last year when i was dealing with one of my episodes of depression, i would loop "submarine" by the marias which i highly recommend! they make bedroom pop. but that album really helped me through dark times
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
2,653
Yes, after she died--Older music was a passion for us, but despite trying many times since her death, it's still not possible for me to listen to anything anymore
 
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easypeasy

Student
Jul 1, 2024
121
Yes, after she died--Older music was a passion for us, but despite trying many times since her death, it's still not possible for me to listen to anything anymore
I'm so sorry for your loss. Xo how bittersweet to love someone so much that losing them means you miss them in proportion to it. I'm sorry xxxx
 
NegevChina

NegevChina

Specialist
Sep 5, 2024
320
I've noticed that I don't enjoy listening to music anymore. I used to love all kinds of music but their meaning is void, now. I am not depressed. The reason I want to ctb is chronic pain for many years and some tragic debilitating results after many negligent surgeries.

Anyway….i wonder if I'm the only one who noticed this? I only listen to podcasts or meditation music. It may be linked to the pain and the fact I can't dance like I used to….

Can anyone relate?
Same with me. Used to love songs when life was good before my chronic illness and CPTSD raised its head. But now, every song i hear when I put on the radio in my car reminds me how life used to be and makes me depressed. I only hear relaxing repeatable music, no songs.
 
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easypeasy

Student
Jul 1, 2024
121
Same with me. Used to love songs when life was good before my chronic illness and CPTSD raised its head. But now, every song i hear when I put on the radio in my car reminds me how life used to be and makes me depressed. I only hear relaxing repeatable music, no songs.
I can 100 percent relate to that. Seems a bunch of us are in the "no lyrics club".
 
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NegevChina

Specialist
Sep 5, 2024
320
I can 100 percent relate to that. Seems a bunch of us are in the "no lyrics club".
Since were in this club i must confess there is one song that I do here and enjoy the lyrics. Its the M*A*S*H theme song suicide is painless and its soft and soothing, I used to enjoy it when i felt good to, though i was never suicidal:

 
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easypeasy

Student
Jul 1, 2024
121
Since were in this club i must confess there is one song that I do here and enjoy the lyrics. Its the M*A*S*H theme song suicide is painless and its soft and soothing, I used to enjoy it when i felt good to, though i was never suicidal:


That is very interesting and unique and made me smile.
 
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ShatteredSerenity

ShatteredSerenity

I talk to God, but the sky is empty.
Nov 24, 2024
328
I've stopped listening to music since I fell into severe depression. Everything I listen to from my playlists triggers a flood of sad memories. Listenting to other people's playlists is slightly better, but I have anhedonia so it brings no real pleasure.

I really miss getting excited by music, loosing that pleasure is one of the things that makes me want to CTB.
 
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easypeasy

Student
Jul 1, 2024
121
I've stopped listening to music since I fell into severe depression. Everything I listen to from my playlists triggers a flood of sad memories. Listenting to other people's playlists is slightly better, but I have anhedonia so it brings no real pleasure.

I really miss getting excited by music, loosing that pleasure is one of the things that makes me want to CTB.
I can completely understand that. It seems like a lot of us can relate. I find it really interesting. It doesn't bother me that I've stopped listening to music. We change and grow through life. I now only listen to instrumental and pod casts. I feel like there's a maturity that comes along with it.

It's bittersweet to hear your sadness but relate to how you're mourning that older version of you. If I haven't worded that correctly, I apologise. Thank you for sharing that with me :)
 
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skylight7

Member
Aug 16, 2024
72
I've noticed that I don't enjoy listening to music anymore. I used to love all kinds of music but their meaning is void, now. I am not depressed. The reason I want to ctb is chronic pain for many years and some tragic debilitating results after many negligent surgeries.

Anyway….i wonder if I'm the only one who noticed this? I only listen to podcasts or meditation music. It may be linked to the pain and the fact I can't dance like I used to….

Can anyone relate?

I fully relate. I stopped listening to / enjoying music, too.
 
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alltoomuch2

Paragon
Feb 10, 2024
942
I did stop being able to listen to music for many months after my breakdown. Then I started to be able to listen to some, but nothing like before. Now I can listen to all the music I used to like as long as it doesn't contain triggers. Interestingly, what changed it was listening to SaSu members' recommendations and music they're currently listening to. I've found my ctb music ill play, and my calming music, via SaSu members
 
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J&L383

Warlock
Jul 18, 2023
707
i listen to music every day - i can't live without music
Music is one thing I look forward to, although it's almost exclusively classical. Meditation music sounds great, but right now I'm still on the old-timey broadcast radio. 🤷‍♂️☹️
 
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easypeasy

Student
Jul 1, 2024
121
Happy It made you smile! I wish you many more smiles what ever path life takes
Thank you. Likewise 🙏
I did stop being able to listen to music for many months after my breakdown. Then I started to be able to listen to some, but nothing like before. Now I can listen to all the music I used to like as long as it doesn't contain triggers. Interestingly, what changed it was listening to SaSu members' recommendations and music they're currently listening to. I've found my ctb music ill play, and my calming music, via SaSu members
That is really interesting and I'd be keen to know any of those songs to see if I can relate..would you be happy to share what one or two of those are?
Music is one thing I look forward to, although it's almost exclusively classical. Meditation music sounds great, but right now I'm still on the old-timey broadcast radio. 🤷‍♂️☹️
Old timey broadcast sounds very grounding and wholesome.
 
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danny10

Member
Jan 8, 2025
9
I've noticed that I don't enjoy listening to music anymore. I used to love all kinds of music but their meaning is void, now. I am not depressed. The reason I want to ctb is chronic pain for many years and some tragic debilitating results after many negligent surgeries.

Anyway….i wonder if I'm the only one who noticed this? I only listen to podcasts or meditation music. It may be linked to the pain and the fact I can't dance like I used to….

Can anyone relate?
I used to love music, I listened to my favourite bands all the time. Then depression came and I noticed that no only I do not listen to music anymore but it actually bothers me a lot. So whenever I am in the car for example, I turn the music off as it bothers me so much. It is really strange and I thought I was only like this. I sure am glad that others have this awful symptom too.
 
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easypeasy

Student
Jul 1, 2024
121
I used to love music, I listened to my favourite bands all the time. Then depression came and I noticed that no only I do not listen to music anymore but it actually bothers me a lot. So whenever I am in the car for example, I turn the music off as it bothers me so much. It is really strange and I thought I was only like this. I sure am glad that others have this awful symptom too.
You're definitely not alone. While not depressed, I stopped listening to music a long time ago when I realised I was calmer driving in silence. I felt more at peace with myself. Now, it's because I have chronic pain. It can be for a lot of reasons…and healthy reasons, too x but it appears you're definitely not alone.
 
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danny10

Member
Jan 8, 2025
9
You're definitely not alone. While not depressed, I stopped listening to music a long time ago when I realised I was calmer driving in silence. I felt more at peace with myself. Now, it's because I have chronic pain. It can be for a lot of reasons…and healthy reasons, too x but it appears you're definitely not alone.
Thank you for your kind words! Sending you hugs!
 
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