I feel like I lost will to live a long time ago, when i lost my wife.
Severe depression set in right after that.
Everyday feels like torture, 12 years now.
I can't believe I've made it this long.
I still work, commercial diver, I can at least zone out underwater, and the work is always interesting.
12 years of this SHIT is to much for anybody to bare, especially with the severe physical that pain I feel creeping in on me more and more every day, more depression still....
Have I lost my WILL to live ?
Definitely, CTB with a partner, the end of January.
She has had enough of this shit too, years as well.
Hope they find a cure for depression in all forms one day.
Completely shut down to life, as you said....
@dust-in-the-wind