Have_a_nice_Life
Member
- Feb 22, 2024
- 57
Hi guys, just feel like i'm an empty shell. I have MDD so of course i can't enjoy anything but it's come to a point where i've lost myself and by the same extent everything that constitued my personnality.
Everything that i loved is just a distant memory, diving, urban climbing, motorcycles, music, movies, sci-fi, engineering, science, video games, animals. I can't think about anything else than my own issues over and over again ruminating.
I can't watch videos even short ones anymore bc i keep getting interrupted by those thoughts. I can't eat, get out of bed anything. Nothing brings me the least amount of satisfaction expect chugging Xanax but that's only temporary before the rebound anxiety hits.
I used to be emphathetic, love to help people, now i don't care, i've gave up on my dreams of being a voluntary firefighters because of that. The only thing that used to drive me (helping people) doesn't interest me anymore. Wich was a need i felt to my core, my very soul.
I've lost myself and by the same way everything that made me myself.
Do y'all feel the same way ?
Everything that i loved is just a distant memory, diving, urban climbing, motorcycles, music, movies, sci-fi, engineering, science, video games, animals. I can't think about anything else than my own issues over and over again ruminating.
I can't watch videos even short ones anymore bc i keep getting interrupted by those thoughts. I can't eat, get out of bed anything. Nothing brings me the least amount of satisfaction expect chugging Xanax but that's only temporary before the rebound anxiety hits.
I used to be emphathetic, love to help people, now i don't care, i've gave up on my dreams of being a voluntary firefighters because of that. The only thing that used to drive me (helping people) doesn't interest me anymore. Wich was a need i felt to my core, my very soul.
I've lost myself and by the same way everything that made me myself.
Do y'all feel the same way ?