Have you had your dreams crushed?

[SomewhereAlongThe]

I've had my dreams crushed when I found out the thing I'm passionate about requires a skill level I just do not naturally have, and I need to be naturally gifted to do it the way I want. So now I'm just stuck with nothing in life. Crushed by how unfair genetics can be.

 

[wildflowers1996]

yes absolutely, I'm sorry you feel the same way

 

[Trav1989]

Yes, I'd go into detail but yeah.... Let's just say I've been at the top and then hit rock bottom and leave it at that....

Putting it lightly.

 

[Worndown]

Dreams are very crushable. That is something shared by everyone.

 

[_AllCatsAreGrey_]

Most definitely. My life is a series of dreams being crushed and gradually building courage to dream again, only to have them crushed. I currently feel pretty jaded.

 

[coolgal82]

yeah, i wanted to be so many things but school was just fucking cringe and i couldnt like idk learn properly or get any required like things to go into further learning (plus that wouldve been way too stressful) like i wanted to go into coding and such but they literally couldnt teach me it so it just killed my interest and now i have nothing i wanna do

 

[PlannedforPeru]

Yeah, among many other reasons CTB'ing gives me a sense of control that is lacking from most other facets of life.

I've been disappointed many times in my life but I wouldn't describe them as "crushed", I've usually always tempered my expectations and reality limbos that shit damn near every time.

 

[Forever Sleep]

To some extent, yes. Both that I don't have the skills, confidence or social abilities to work with others to have got to where I originally wanted in my career. Plus, it's creative, so computers have basically decimated the industry.

However, some of it is an assessment of reality to be fair. Jobs in my industry can see people travelling up and down the country and doing 16 hour days. So then it becomes- do I actually want to live like that? Erm... no! Do I want to be plankton level in a sea of sharks? Nope! Do I want to be ruthlessly exploited- Nah.

I've become better at realising that the small niche I managed to carve for myself is probably the best I can hope for and maybe it's for the best for me anyway. That said, it's still so bloody difficult to sustain financially and physically now. I'm older and less motivated than I used to be and it's just not giving me what it used to. So, on multiple levels really, my dreams are collapsing.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I never had any dreams in the first place. I never wanted to do anything in life to begin with

 

[FuneralCry]

My only dream has been to never exist again, I have no interest in the burden of human existence which I see as so cruel and futile, it's something I never would have wished for or chosen, all I wish for is to be permanently unable to suffer, for me death truly would be the only relief as I believe it to simply be nothingness, ceasing to exist is all I see as desirable.

 

[PhDone]

Yep, spent my whole life doing qualifications and working hard to achieve my dream. Got one foot in the door and fell ill with chronic illness. Lost everything, literally everything, including my home, friends, social life, ability to do anything at all. What was the fn point? Committed everything thinking life owed me nothing and I needed to earn what I achieved. Total waste of time.

 

[asa]

That's pretty much the reason why I'm here. I'm sorry you feel that way though

 

[WhatPowerIs]

Reality is harsh and has crushed too many.

 

[LapseInTime]

Every time I've tried to pursue a dream I had the misfortune of seeing it crumble before me for one reason or another. It's been one disappointment after an other. It's over for me. I put the little energy I had into working for some things that didn't work out. There's none left anymore. It's genetics, it's never having had had a normal life, it's financial problems, it's everything atop of the depression. Every failure made it worse. I don't dream anymore.

 

[-nobodyknows-]

Yes. The things I want most in life are not things I should pursue when I am like this. And I have been told that I will not get better.