StateOfMind
Liberty or Death
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- 1,195
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Konjac
Specialist
- Oct 25, 2020
- 301
Yeah, pretty often, even more so since I started planning to CTB oddly enough. They'll always be just fantasy, though. As much as I'd like to get my own back, I'd rather not risk the jail time lmao.
chrisbate7
Student
- Sep 30, 2020
- 191
All the time. But I do believe it is due to my OCD than any real desire. I've never been violent in any way. Not to mention, nothing could be worse than going to jail No way to CTB and still dealing with all the shit that makes me suicidal
WornOutLife
マット
- Mar 22, 2020
- 7,183
Yes, I have but I wouldn't dare to do it. It's harder than CTB in my opinion lol
BLUE1970
Experienced
- Nov 3, 2020
- 213
Every day, if the thought police existed I would be on death row (if it existed in the UK)
Astronomer
Mentally, i'm in space, in reality, i am in hell.
- Oct 6, 2020
- 155
Yes, i'd love to finish all the corrupt medical (un)professionals in the UK who deny sick people specialist referrals and who feed off human suffering.
Sherri
Archangel
- Sep 28, 2020
- 13,791
No, prob one of the nice things about me. Wouldn't Ming If someone shot me down by mistake though in the head preferably.
CatLove56
Specialist
- Jun 30, 2018
- 309
I've thought about killing my boss or someone around me that pisses me off all the time
Futile
Tired of being lonely
- Sep 3, 2020
- 499
sadbadpsychogirl
sonofabitch
- May 29, 2020
- 725
no, although everyone assumes i do. let them think what they want
Metalhead
Born slippy
- Sep 21, 2020
- 213
something..something...alll pedos must die....
mahakaliSS_MahaDurga
Visionary
- Apr 2, 2020
- 2,399
You are not being PC, they are called MAPS, calling them pedos is offensive.
Life_and_Death
Do what's best for you 🕯️ I'm............
- Jul 1, 2020
- 7,030
im just gonna leave it at sometimes im in the mindset of "im suicidal, why do i care?"Last edited:
sadworld
existence is a nightmare
- Aug 25, 2020
- 3,868
All the time, a little bit too much maybe...
CatLove56
Specialist
- Jun 30, 2018
- 309
Fuck those goons trying to take our rights awayYes, when I see people who are cruel to animals/torture animals, I seriously want to kill them.
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Warlock
- Jul 31, 2020
- 727
yes, when i was little i took a knife to stab my dad who was hitting my mom
death137
miserable
- Jun 25, 2020
- 1,166
When my depression started before I became actively suicidal I actually had a whole plan to kill my dad. Didn't follow through though but I still wish that he'd go away so badly.
Dr Iron Arc
Into the Unknown
- Feb 10, 2020
- 21,405
Sure, all the time, though never anyone specific.
ecmnesia
the only thing humans are equal in is death
- Aug 30, 2020
- 766
not proud of it, but I seriously considered murdering my family (and of course, myself next).
Weightoftheworld
Let me burn.
- Apr 19, 2020
- 258
Absolutely. Though never anyone in specific and I would never follow through with it. I just planned out all the details in my head.When I had severe akathisia, I became homicidal for a bit. It was the first time truly understanding how someone could do that. I never got to the point where I would have killed random people, but I got far too close to seriously considering buying a gun and shooting a couple of managers at a former job who obviously couldn't care less that they were making our jobs straight up hell. Then of course, I would have killed myself. I don't have homicidal thoughts anymore. I still get it though.
ecmnesia
the only thing humans are equal in is death
- Aug 30, 2020
- 766
not sure it's a justifiable reason but... well, we've always been on bad terms, my parents were/are quite abusive and I always felt oppressed by them, to the point that I gave up on my right to choose things for and by myself so that I could satisfy their wishes. I felt trapped to them, and couldn't cbt because of how my decision would affect them, and then I thought that maybe I could just take them with me, so that they wouldn't feel a thing about it (cause they'd be dead) and neither I'd feel guilty. Plus, I don't think their deaths would make a huge difference on the world. It was obviously not the best outcome for them, but it wouldn't be as bad as dealing with the fact that my actions would have consequences to them, because somehow, I felt worse about making them live with grief than about killing them.
it's a fucked up thought I guess. but well, I had it, no reason to deny.
I just gave up on the idea because of my brothers. It wouldn't be fair to make them pay for my parents mistakes, nor for mine. I hate my parents, but I guess they kind of like them... Plus it'd be to troublesome.
flatearth
dot
- Aug 27, 2020
- 108
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