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Deleted member 24434

Deleted member 24434

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Dec 3, 2020
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Yes, when I was young. I took coke and ecstasy. Had some wild nights haha. Though when I started doing poppers that's when my anxiety disorder began. That was the end for me. I just take booze now and not even hard booze, just beer.
 
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paininme

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Nov 17, 2020
84
Yes many different combinations I think to numb the pain but you are always chasing that feeling as soon as reality kicked in which made things harder Iv been sober 3 years now
 
SuicideBoys93

SuicideBoys93

I am the lord of loneliness.
Feb 10, 2020
324
I smoke weed for medicinal purposes. But in my younger and happier days I dabbled in pills, ecstasy, ghb, and more weed. I'm honestly shocked I never OD'd on GHB. My friend's mother was prescribed it to help her sleep but we'd sneak off with her bottle drinking the stuff all night through a syringe. We'd wait until we were coming down off the high and go right back up. At the time I was 16-17ish without one worry of accidentally overdosing. The stuff was absolutely insane. Passing out standing up and having absolutely no motor function. Easily one of the most hardest highs I've ever expierenced.
 
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Isadeth

Visionary
Jun 12, 2020
2,538
Everybody lies. Especially to doctors and nurses. My doctors believe I'm clean. I'm not on anything hard but I use pot frequently lately. Quit for about 10 years and since smoking again, I'm finally back up to a healthy weight and I can laugh about tragedy instead of crying... granted not always, but it's better than it was. My doctor believes it's the medications he prescribed. I stopped taking those months ago.
 
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LooksAtMoonDog

Too Long in the Wasteland
Nov 10, 2020
719
Marijuana, LSD, magic mushrooms, DXM, ecstasy, nicotine, booze, coffee, tea. Tried cocaine but it really didn't do anything for me. Smoked opium a couple of times, but other than that never really did any opiates.

Just did them for fun, mostly With Friends, Good Times. They never got to be a problem for me, never interfere with me getting an education or doing my jobs. So what the fuck?

These days I microdose to Stave off depression, but other than that don't really do any drugs now. Tho if I lived in a legal state I'd probably smoke weed every now and then.
 
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NodusTollens

NodusTollens

Nov 17, 2020
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Yes, when I was young. I took coke and ecstasy. Had some wild nights haha. Though when I started doing poppers that's when my anxiety disorder began. That was the end for me. I just take booze now and not even hard booze, just beer.
—hugs—I can appreciate this.

:ahhha: After years of partying away the pain- I'll take a beer ( & weed).

Cheers
 
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noname223

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Aug 18, 2020
5,862
I wanna give this thread a push lol
 
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fruit-loops

fruit-loops

Student
Jun 27, 2021
150
A DMT experience I had was increible. I had found all the answers to life and the universe but can't remember anything lol.
Wow, that is damn interesting!
I read it can really change the way you experiment you life. Did you change your mind about CTB, for example?
 
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UseItOrLoseIt

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Dec 4, 2020
2,215
An ode to drugs :sunglasses:

I'm a total freak when it comes to drugs. I don't know what it is... True love I'd say. Oh the times we had together. Ravaging as a kid through encyclopedias for articles about mind atering substances, smoking my parents cigaretes under the window of their room while they were sleeping after coming exausted from work. My grandmother almost caught me once. I stumped barefooted on a dud, barely kept it togehter. I walked through forests in search of deliririants like datura and henbane but unfortunately never found any. I'm not sure if I could have the balls to actually try that stuff, but it's the adventure that mattered. I've never danced like on escstasy, never played the piano like on lsd.

It could be said, that I do this to escape myself, that I need my mind altered because I don't like it how it is by itself. Maybe, to a dergree. But its more. It's a legit interest of mine since forever. And it rarely dissapointed me.

Because I'm not a junkie. I know, not really something to say after an ode, but besides weed I was never addicted to anyhing. I have measure. But I'll try almost anything.

P.s. I hate booze. Makes me sleepy.
 
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FohPah

Student
Dec 7, 2019
146
I binge drink a lot because it's fun and comforting and I'm chronically lonely. But I've cut back on it lately because I'm not enjoying it as much anymore.

Instead I'm mostly using cannabis now. It opens my mind so much that it's helping me escape my toxic thought patterns.

I'm dying to try ayahuasca to open my mind even more.
 
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WornOutLife

マット
Mar 22, 2020
7,163
Wow, that is damn interesting!
I read it can really change the way you experiment you life. Did you change your mind about CTB, for example?
It surely was but...
I actually became more suicidal I think. I mean, I just wanted to leave this world ASAP to experience whatever the hell they had told me.
I think this life is just like a "prison" and the "real fun" is out there, once we die! lol
 
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upthedownescalatorr

Member
Jul 24, 2021
75
Weed was my panacea since I was 19 but since I developed tinnitus last year I can't enjoy it anymore because it makes the ringing even more unbearable.
 
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VivantMort

VivantMort

PleromaKenoma
Jul 28, 2021
35
Extract of the coca leaf was my pseudo-lover. Was an unhealthy and irrational but rational escape from an angsty existential crisis. Adieu, diable blanc.... I will not miss thee!
 
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Callie Arcale

It’s a tale told by an idiot signifying nothing
Feb 10, 2021
852
No, never tried any drugs. I've had severe anxiety all my life and I've always been afraid that taking drugs would mess me up even more.
An ode to drugs :sunglasses:

I'm a total freak when it comes to drugs. I don't know what it is... True love I'd say. Oh the times we had together. Ravaging as a kid through encyclopedias for articles about mind atering substances, smoking my parents cigaretes under the window of their room while they were sleeping after coming exausted from work. My grandmother almost caught me once. I stumped barefooted on a dud, barely kept it togehter. I walked through forests in search of deliririants like datura and henbane but unfortunately never found any. I'm not sure if I could have the balls to actually try that stuff, but it's the adventure that mattered. I've never danced like on escstasy, never played the piano like on lsd.

It could be said, that I do this to escape myself, that I need my mind altered because I don't like it how it is by itself. Maybe, to a dergree. But its more. It's a legit interest of mine since forever. And it rarely dissapointed me.

Because I'm not a junkie. I know, not really something to say after an ode, but besides weed I was never addicted to anyhing. I have measure. But I'll try almost anything.

P.s. I hate booze. Makes me sleepy.

Now write that in verse and make it rhyme :-)
 
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Grav

Elementalist
Jul 26, 2020
817
Yep did for the gold ol' "be one of the crowd" and it cost me probably the only thing I would have been happy doing. So no, I don't consider it a positive experience for me at all. It's the one thing I would change if I had a time machine and a past mistake I can never forgive. So, good times.
 
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noname223

Archangel
Aug 18, 2020
5,862
No, never tried any drugs. I've had severe anxiety all my life and I've always been afraid that taking drugs would mess me up even more.


Now write that in verse and make it rhyme :-)
I can relate to what you are saying. I am insane enough - don't wanna imagine me on drugs
 
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Sad_Autistic_boy_101

When I die, you'll love me.
Nov 19, 2019
455
Yes, I've battled with drug addiction for a long time. Not in the sense a lot of people think of like cocaine or Molly for example.

I was 12 when I started drinking and taking paracetamol together, then it turned into taking anything in the medicine cabinet. Then to opiates - Especially codeine and then Diphenhydramine which isn't an opiate but makes you chill.

For me, it's the only way to cope with existing. I never asked to be born and so this is the best I'm going to get to not feelings like I'm alive.
 
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Dear Agony

Dear Agony

The Void
Jan 24, 2020
296
Yes. I'm addicted to nicotine (half a pack a day), have done weed recreationally quite a few times (and didn't enjoy most experiences. I am a very paranoid and anxious individual and it made it 10x worse, just not my thing I guess). Used to heavily abuse alcohol and benzos on my teens (I got prescribed clonazepam and alprazolam for anxiety, it started there).
Nowadays, I haven't used any substance aside from alcohol and cigarettes in years, do not have a problem with alcoholism (I very rarely drink) and never became addicted to the benzos.
I honestly disagree with that psychologist, though. I went inpatient once for self harm, and met a lot of drug addicts and alcoholics. It's not a choice, and they deserve love and support. They will always struggle with addiction, but that doesn't mean all hope is lost, and saying that is extremely detrimental and prejudicious to them. They have bad stigma enough. It's not a drug I know, but I am severely addicted to food (bulimic), and consider it a drug, so I can honestly relate to every person with an addiction in the world tbh... it's not a choice. We are driven to it by circumstances in life we see no way out.
 

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