Have you ever considered streaming your suicide

[sometimesoon]

For some reason, it has always been part of my plans to CTB. It really resonates with me, and I have gone on to figure out how to do it.

Do others have those feelings as well at times

 

[divinemistress87]

It would end up on gore sites for sickos to make vile comments

 

[Plato'sCaveDweller]

nah. I want to do it alone, as it's quite a personal thing in my opinion. and as divinemistress said, it'd just end up on a gore site and i'd get mocked and masturbated to (yes, people get off to deaths on gore sites). while i'd be dead and it wouldn't concern me if that were to be the case, it concerns me now while i'm still alive, so i'd like to not let that happen.

 

[Plentiful_Despair]

No. I would need to get some followers first, buy the equipment...why make this effort? I don't care if anyone wants to see my head getting blown off by a shotgun, go to a gore site for that. There are already thousands of videos.

 

[WhiteRabbit]

No. I don't need attention that bad. I'm not trying to make a statement.

 

[xxxxt]

It's meaningless because no one comes to watch even if I livestream

 

[Doorframe_dead]

I'll pass on the streaming thank you. I'd like my final moments to be known by no one but me

 

[DoneWithThisLife]

No way. I just want to be alone & in the middle of nowhere.

 

[someCleo]

Honestly, I have at times thought "fuck it. I don't care. If someone as sick as me gets a kick out of seeing me (insert method), then that's better. At least my death won't be meaningless." I don't know if that counts as learning tho

 

[Ol Messier 87]

That would mean ending your life by doing two desperate things in a row, one of which could have been easily avoided. No thanks.

 

[annique]

no fucking way, and the sole thought of doing so is already enough to send chills down my spine... yikes

 

[sometimesoon]

It's meaningless because no one comes to watch even if I livestream

How do you know that?

Honestly, I have at times thought "fuck it. I don't care. If someone as sick as me gets a kick out of seeing me (insert method), then that's better. At least my death won't be meaningless." I don't know if that counts as learning tho

It does - I have watched several hangings on watching people die, and I have learned a lot about position and how quick it really can be as a method. If I could provide that, I'd feel good about that

It would end up on gore sites for sickos to make vile comments

I am not really worried about that - I'd be dead anyways -

No way. I just want to be alone & in the middle of nowhere.

Yeah I have this image of me going deep in the woods off some trail, and finding a good branch that is hidden behind in the bush
Not found for weeks

 

[Wolf Girl]

I'm kind of an exhibitionist when manic, so I could see myself in the depths of a mixed manic episode dressing in lingerie and streaming my ctb for gore hounds to jerk off to.

 

[sometimesoon]

I'm kind of an exhibitionist when manic, so I could see myself in the depths of a mixed manic episode dressing in lingerie and streaming my ctb for gore hounds to jerk off to.

That would be quite the show

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

Not at all. I don;t see how it would benefit anyone.

 

[sugarb]

There's plenty of shotgun suicide footage already, the only people watching would be gore freaks. Zero reason to record more, let alone livestream it. Plus, what if my family saw the footage? I wouldn't want to traumatize them more

I'm kind of an exhibitionist when manic, so I could see myself in the depths of a mixed manic episode dressing in lingerie and streaming my ctb for gore hounds to jerk off to.

Kinda bizarre but to each their own ig

 

[uglyugly]

No way. None. Why? Because if someone stumbles on to it that did not want to see it, or god forbid, a child somehow is watching. No one should be forced to watch someone die. I feel I have the right to ctb but not drag others into it.

 

[hereornot]

I already thought about it but changed my mind, it would traumatize people and others would see something very different there.

If I catch the bus, I will leave a video ready beforehand or a broadcast talking about the reasons so that it doesn't distort, but without showing it actually happening.

 

[offbalance]

I don't really want to because as others have said, suicide feels like a personal and private thing and I don't want my last moments to be sick entertainment for others. I can see why you would want to provide others that education though. I just think the thought of others jerking off to it would make my last moments less than pleasant.