Alchemist

Alchemist

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Apr 3, 2019
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In junior high school, I was the top student in my class. If I remember correctly, my past self was very hopeful about life and future in general. My parents had high expectation of me. I too had high expectation for myself. I thought the future would be straight and narrow. I thought I would grow to be a great person. I thought everything would be ok.

I realize I was being naive.
Story of my life. I had perfect grades until I reached highschool, then everything dropped to barely making it.
 
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TheFinalCountdown

TheFinalCountdown

Student
Mar 25, 2019
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I was happy for half a year or so when I was about 19. Maybe I was happy at some point when I was a little kid but I don't remember
 
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ayanonikki

ayanonikki

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Apr 7, 2019
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i think for the majority of my life i was just not aware of how unhappy i was with who i am and what my life is. for example, when i was 8 i stopped eating in order to lose weight, i was too young to realise that i actually despised how my body looked and that this was extremely unhealthy. i just thought that i needed to lose weight and this was the easiest and fastest way to do so. or when i was 15 and i wore makeup and dressed up in skimpy clothes for a picture and didn't realise how not content i was with the fact that i wasn't getting enough likes online and how fake i was being to achieve that, completely untrue to myself.

for the past year or so i've been really reflective of what my life has been up until now and i realise how unhappy i am, how many things i hate about myself and the world. but now that i'm aware of it i'm going to try and make an active change to myself and for myself so i can change my self-image.
 
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SadGirl

SadGirl

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Mar 24, 2019
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i think for the majority of my life i was just not aware of how unhappy i was with who i am and what my life is. for example, when i was 8 i stopped eating in order to lose weight, i was too young to realise that i actually despised how my body looked and that this was extremely unhealthy. i just thought that i needed to lose weight and this was the easiest and fastest way to do so. or when i was 15 and i wore makeup and dressed up in skimpy clothes for a picture and didn't realise how not content i was with the fact that i wasn't getting enough likes online and how fake i was being to achieve that, completely untrue to myself.

for the past year or so i've been really reflective of what my life has been up until now and i realise how unhappy i am, how many things i hate about myself and the world. but now that i'm aware of it i'm going to try and make an active change to myself and for myself so i can change my self-image.
Just live for you, live for you to feel good about yourself. Be who you are without caring about others' opinions.
 
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IronTusk

IronTusk

Experienced
Apr 10, 2019
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Yes but more horrifying is the moment i realized my life would become a nightmare.
 
marcusuk63

marcusuk63

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Mar 24, 2019
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Just live for you, live for you to feel good about yourself. Be who you are without caring about others' opinions.
Your reply made a song pop into my head (been a Supertramp fan for decades lol )
 
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Alchemist

Alchemist

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Apr 3, 2019
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i think for the majority of my life i was just not aware of how unhappy i was with who i am and what my life is. for example, when i was 8 i stopped eating in order to lose weight, i was too young to realise that i actually despised how my body looked and that this was extremely unhealthy. i just thought that i needed to lose weight and this was the easiest and fastest way to do so. or when i was 15 and i wore makeup and dressed up in skimpy clothes for a picture and didn't realise how not content i was with the fact that i wasn't getting enough likes online and how fake i was being to achieve that, completely untrue to myself.

for the past year or so i've been really reflective of what my life has been up until now and i realise how unhappy i am, how many things i hate about myself and the world. but now that i'm aware of it i'm going to try and make an active change to myself and for myself so i can change my self-image.
That's exactly what I was saying on the topic on social media, it only makes people miserable and insecure, at least when I was a teen I only had to deal with bullying on a local level and didn't had everyone rubbing on my face how good their lives were,

I knew a guy once that for that and other reason has forbidden his kids from using any and all social media until they turn 18.
 
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K8!

Member
Apr 8, 2019
17
No. My happiness came through others, being happy for them. But I cant say i have ever been happy
 
Dead beat dad

Dead beat dad

Enlightened
Mar 5, 2019
1,030
I was happy as a little boy. The more I came to know of the world, what it is and what it had in store, the sadder I became.
DBD
 

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