Discussion Have you ever attempted suicide, knowing you wouldn't die?

[Ratherbeskinny]

Have you ever attempted suicide, knowing you wouldn't die?

 

[CarefulWithThatAxe]

Yes although at the time I really thought it would kill me it was more a cry for help.

 

[Ratherbeskinny]

Yes although at the time I really thought it would kill me it was more a cry for help.

Thank you for your honesty.

 

[Wayfaerer]

Never, because I'd think that would be entirely pointless.

 

[Ratherbeskinny]

Never, because I'd think that would be entirely pointless.

It may be in the long run, but I'm going to be completely honest here; I've done it as well. I've even asked/begged my boyfriend at the time if I could just swallow some pills, just enough to get me hospitalized so they would finally help me. I was in a very very bad place at the time and was so selfdestructive that it almost literally got me killed a few times (that's the point rn, but it was different back then) I just needed/wanted help, yet the health care system here only seems to listen to someone when they put themselves or others in serious danger. Words don't mean a thing. If I hadn't tried to kill myself so much, I'd be dead already. Isn't that weird? It may sound hypocritical because all I really want rn is to just have peace, but I just wasn't ready back then in the way I am now to end it all. I also did quite a few "serious" and very dangerous attempts, but I'll admit; I knew I wasn't going to die from swallowing 20 to 40 pills. Today, I seem more happy than I've ever been. I should be in fucking broadway for it. But I know that this is my only option left and I know that the next and last time I attempt, it will be successfull. No more health care system attention needed. Just peace.

 

[Soulless_Angel]

yes and no, I went to a bridge, but mind blanked out, my true intention I will never know, One time I can say though, July, I took an overdose, knowing it wouldn't kill me, but deep inside I kinda hoped it would, but knowing it wouldn't, I wanted it too let me sleep, sleep for hours, sleep for months, I didn't care.
I took it in the hope that it would let me forget the pain, but a part of my soul hoped beyond hope I would never wake up, but reality told me different.
its complicated but I hope this makes some kind of sense!

 

[MeltingHeart]

Sort of; OD- thinking there is a v.high chance it will not work, but just really hoping somehow it would- definitely not for attention-don't really see the point in that-i'm used to not having any, no point in trying to get it now, i'd rather have none and for people to stop trying to stop me!

 

[I'm exhausted]

Yes although at the time I really thought it would kill me it was more a cry for help.

Me too

 

[orangemushroom]

No, I've sadly been too cowardly to try.

 

[134340]

Several times, I've taken countless overdoses that were big enough to make me sick, warrant hospital visits, and a few caused some permanent damage, but not big enough to actually end it. They were all cries for help/attention, always an attempt to make my father care more about me than he does. Not worth it.

 

[Elias]

I did once, I started to eat pills for anxiety (Lysanxia) as I wanted to calm down, but after the 3rd one I thought "fuck it, let's take everything", so I took all my pills in my hands and started swallowing them one by one. When I started to realise that was stupid, I went back to my school (I was on lunch break), and told what I did. Ambulance came, I got to the nearest hospital, my life was not in danger and deep down I knew it but freaked out, and I got discharged the same day. Spent the 3 days in a weird happy mood as Lysanxia has a long life in the blood. Didn't see any shrink after that, and that was my first attempt to ctb. I think I did not want to die, but I thought "well, if that has a chance to happen, let's give it a try".

 

[exhausted]

No, but I genuinely considered taking a week off work this year so I could overdose on a bunch of stuff, not tell anyone and just cope with the effects and bounce back. I just wanted to imagine that it was real as I did it, I wanted the feeling of "this is it", take the pills and pass out for a few days. Then sort myself out and go back to work. It was my idea of a treat.

Suicide attempts without intent to die are perfectly valid. Self-harm/cry for help/escapism/test-drive...whatever it is, it's an expression of pain. My little sister used to do it, she would neck pills, not enough to die obviously, and as usual, our parents would tell her she wasn't going to hospital. I feel like she kept on doing it so one day they wouldn't ignore it. If your mental health problems are ignored, you may end up resorting to increasingly desperate means to show your pain. I think if people don't respond to your suicide attempts correctly, it throws your ability to perceive the gravity of the act itself out of whack and makes further attempts more likely.

 

[SoupSnakes]

I took my first overdose and had I not of vomited, it would have killed me. I knew how much it would take to be successful but because I don't drink, I couldn't hold the alcohol.

The second overdose was simply because I needed help and just didn't know where to get it from.

 

[maka]

Yes/no. When I was a kid, my first attempt was somewhere between 9-11 years old. I had no knowledge of anything whatsoever so I didn't know that drinking cough syrup and tying a scarf around my neck and crying on the floor for several hours wouldn't kill me, but I sure hoped it did.

 

[MissNietzsche]

Nope. I've decided that my first attempt will be my last. That's why I haven't attempted yet while sometimes reallyyyyy wanting to to try. I NEED to be 100% certain. I don't want to have any theoretical regrets.

 

[Little Mook]

Yes, my first OD was pretty pathetic. I was 19. I just wanted it to be known how much pain I was in . If I hadn't had vomited and been found , and had passed I would have been fine with that. Knowing more now , I think that unlikely though considering the amount and what I took.

 

[onlyinsleep]

Nope my first attempt will be done right

 

[Moonicide]

No. This will be my first attempt and final one. I've done so much research on here to make sure that when I do attempt, it will more than likely lead to a peaceful sleep. I can't imagine attempting and still living. I couldn't deal with it. I'd be so upset and disappointed in myself.

 

[Roger]

R.E.: thread title.

If you know you are not going to die, then it isn't a suicide attempt is it ?

 

[Abood95]

All the times I tried to hang myself I knew that. Painful and SI doesn't help.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

I tried partial hanging dozens of times acting impulsively and knowing it doesn't really work like I was doing it..
It's more like self harm probably

 

[Science Is Scary]

R.E.: thread title.

If you know you are not going to die, then it isn't a suicide attempt is it ?

I wonder if suicide gesture is a better term. Although it apparently has its own problems.

 

[MelancholyPie]

I was very young when I first thought about the idea. So if I am to be as honest as possible, sometimes I only did it as a cry for help even knowing nothing would happen, and sometimes I really thought I would succeed or at least hoped for it, but wasn't well informed. None of my attempts ever threatened my life for real.

I think as much as I want to do it, I'm too afraid to take the right steps

 

[tariq aqeel]

I took my first overdose and had I not of vomited, it would have killed me. I knew how much it would take to be successful but because I don't drink, I couldn't hold the alcohol.

The second overdose was simply because I needed help and just didn't know where to get it from.

Which overdose nearly killed you

 

[SoupSnakes]

Which overdose nearly killed you

I took a lot of medications that I had left over with a lot of alcohol. I don't usually drink and clearly couldn't handle it, if I hadn't of vommed, I'd be gone. There was just abit of everything you could imagine in there.

 

[BridgeJumper]

LMAO, basically all my attempts were like that. Even the most serious ones I made sure I have a backup plan in case I want to undo my death and be saved
I jumped knowing the bridge is not high enough to kill me on impact, and knowing that I will be fished out of the river before I have the chance to drown. I could never jump at night when there was no one around because Im a coward.
My lamest ones were probably trying to choke myself out with my bare hands, overdosing on 15 xanax in a school bathroom, and nicking my wrist with a shaving razor while sitting on a bench in a park.

No, but I genuinely considered taking a week off work this year so I could overdose on a bunch of stuff, not tell anyone and just cope with the effects and bounce back. I just wanted to imagine that it was real as I did it, I wanted the feeling of "this is it", take the pills and pass out for a few days. Then sort myself out and go back to work. It was my idea of a treat.

Suicide attempts without intent to die are perfectly valid. Self-harm/cry for help/escapism/test-drive...whatever it is, it's an expression of pain. My little sister used to do it, she would neck pills, not enough to die obviously, and as usual, our parents would tell her she wasn't going to hospital. I feel like she kept on doing it so one day they wouldn't ignore it. If your mental health problems are ignored, you may end up resorting to increasingly desperate means to show your pain. I think if people don't respond to your suicide attempts correctly, it throws your ability to perceive the gravity of the act itself out of whack and makes further attempts more likely.

Amen.
I do it sometimes.
No one notices my pain and Im tired of not getting any help in the hospital and being told Im wasting resources. so I drink paint or take 30 pills and check out of life for a while until Im ready for another serious attempt.

 

[Sweet emotion]

Why would someone out themselves through that? What is the point?

 

[BridgeJumper]

A cry for help?
Or, for me, a bad case of wanting to die and being too scared to go through with it, yet too determined to back out.

 

[BPD Barbie]

My first overdose on paracetamol. Was only 14 at the time but everyone just thought I was being a typical teenager and acting up, reality was that I wanted someone to listen to me and save me from the abuse I was suffering at home.

 

[BridgeJumper]

That can actually kill you, I ended up with temporary organ damage after 100 pills
Sorry for the way you were treated, hugs xxx