Has your life always been shit?

[StateOfMind]

Or was it good and at some point you received a blow fate that changed everything?
For me everything went to shit in 2016, since then my life has been a living nightmare.

 

[motel rooms]

No, there were years when it was piss or vomit

 

[Beachedwhale]

No.

I had everything, but perfectionism and fear has ruined it (and still is).

 

[torimandy]

I spent 40 years trying to pretend to be what other expected me to be. I had money and power, but was sad and conflicted. I allowed myself to be the person I knew I was and society took all the money and power away and won't let me complete my goals. So, no I have never been nor ever will be happy.

 

[Bullit]

My life has been like a hundred dollar bill laying on the sidewalk. All I had to do was reach down and pick it up. But I was never,it seems,able to do that.

 

[deletednumber]

my life was shit even before, but it has become even more shitty and hellish since 2014/2015

 

[Mentalmick]

Always been like this, only difference is it's worse now.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Kind of, though it's still easier for me to remember the good times than the bad. Nostalgia's a bitch. I think I've always been suffering just in different ways though.

 

[Futile]

Yes

 

[Downbylife]

No, my body started to sabotage me couple of months ago. Before that it was bearable

 

[StateOfMind]

I spent 40 years trying to pretend to be what other expected me to be. I had money and power, but was sad and conflicted. I allowed myself to be the person I knew I was and society took all the money and power away and won't let me complete my goals. So, no I have never been nor ever will be happy.

I can relate to that.
I was never rich or anything, but I had most if not everything I needed. A promising education, job, partner, my own place friends.
Now I'm just a NEET / Hikikomori in mom's basement that gets covertly harassed anywhere I go.

 

[GoingMyOwnWay]

A number of poor decisions as a result of drug addiction meant that my life has disintegrated into what would appear to be a "no way out apart from death/suicide" type of situation. I had a not so bad 27 years of life, managed to build up a career. Thought I could control my habits, but it got the better of me.

I managed to get clean, put my life back on track. But unfortunately you can't escape your past sometimes.

 

[Red]

Yep, always been tragic and pointless!
Trying to pretend that it's not right now but it really is
Denial is more than just a river in Egypt...

 

[GoingMyOwnWay]

I can relate to that.
I was never rich or anything, but I had most if not everything I needed. A promising education, job, partner, my own place friends.
Now I'm just a NEET / Hikikomori in mom's basement that gets covertly harassed anywhere I go.

And if you tell anyone you're being harassed without any evidence, you're labelled a crazy person.

 

[RedHarlequin]

As a kid life was pretty good, I experienced a lot of happiness, had a lot of interests. I still had thoughts about suicide here and there and even a suicide attempt but it was always after big arguments or something shitty happening. It's been getting worse with every year now, to the point where the thoughts about suicide have consumed me fully and there is no happiness anymore.

 

[StateOfMind]

And if you tell anyone you're being harassed without any evidence, you're labelled a crazy person.

Pretty much exactly this.

 

[GoingMyOwnWay]

Pretty much exactly this.

Yeah, I can relate because I've got the same thing going on. I'm so tired of it, nothing I do seems to make it stop. I can't even cry about it anymore.

 

[WornOutLife]

I've been suicidal since I was 12 but my life used to be quite awesome 7 years ago.

 

[EraseRewind]

No, my life was ok and I suppose it is still ok now. As a child things were very tough and I guess I always felt that I wasn't worth a thing. I know I wrote my first not at 8 or so and my parents found it and just laughed and called me a loon. I started taking the odd drink at 10 then continued that until my 40s.

I had a nice job, partner, little house, I still have everything but the job (down to my own shame that one) but I always felt as though I didn't want to live.

Do groups, done counselling even doing study but that feeling of complete worthlessness will never go. Tried the exit a few times and obviously not great at that but I'm still clinging on somehow. I hope one day it will change either I get well or I find the door.

 

[FuneralCry]

I mean I was born into good circumstances but my problems are based within myself and always have been. My brain simply isn't wired to deal with this world and I have always suffered from mild depression and I have always struggled to cope with this life. I am also prone to bad luck and have been experiencing physical health problems. I guess i've never really enjoyed life or felt like I have had a place within it.

 

[PoofLoop:P]

I was good and then it went down hill

 

[yive]

life is a scam, trap and prison, i wish i was never born. life has always been full of suffering. i was so foolish to have been fooled for so long

 

[lanax09]

there were always problems such as pretty bad bullying, academic pressure and certain traits my mother had that affected me even before she turned total bitch but I'd say I was mostly happy until just after I hit my 10th birthday

 

[BlankUser]

Not always. My childhood looked promising. Even though my parents were narcissistic and fighting frequently, there were good things in my life. I thought I'm gonna have a bright future. But everything went to shit since 2001.... There were ups and downs... I got severe OCD in my late teens and life was never been the same. Not to mention my horrible relatives

 

[saltshaker]

The most fun i've had involved hanging out with the cool kids, i miss those days.

Everything changed like 9 years ago, went feral and disconnected from people.

 

[bad_luck]

Yes. I've never enjoyed or accomplished much, despite much, much effort. I think I'm just naturally unlucky (hence my username).

 

[Sensei]

My life was mostly alright until I developed bipolar disorder in my early 30s. After that, existence has meant pain.

 

[OpheliasFlowers]

I had about two good years, when I was 17 and 18. But even those two years weren't lacking in SHIT...still had an alcoholic father, health issues, depression and anxiety and no self-esteem. I'd still say those were good years though, relatively speaking. But that's it for me. Two decent years out of 53. wooo

 

[In2TheVoid]

I had a great life until I had a manic episode about 7 months ago and everything went to hell... destroyed my mind and lost everything, I was building a business that I think could have been huge and had a lovely relationship

 

[death137]

I used to feel my life before age 10 was great but reading about antinatalism made me to realize that my life has always been miserable. Now I divide my miserable life into 2 phase (when it used to be bearable and unbearable).