has anyones sadness turn into bitterness or anger

[anyoneshorizon]

I don't want to be bitter but I can't help it. it's just built-up frustration and anger that I don't know where to direct.

 

[FinalDestiny]

Yeah, for myself, the sadness gets normalized and I get frustrated that I can't even seem to cry anymore. When that happens I start focusing on one of the polar extremes.
I either get super hopeful that I see the problem ahead of me and over confidently promise myself that I can find a way to climb out of the hole.
Or I get even more depressed and lash out / push everyone away from me as viciously as I can.

I'm not sure what your situation is or what is available to you in terms of resources. My suggestion is to find a simple hobby that you can do mindlessly and try to redirect those energies to that hobby. For myself, I tried a couple things but wound up finding my peace just playing videogames for an unreasonable number of hours.

It's not perfect (and nor am I), there will be days where you may not be able to focus or the anger may just be too much for you to will it away but its important to recognize those moments and treat them just as a junkie would treat a relapse. Acknowledge that it happened, make peace with it and try to get back on the horse.

Some personal advice from me is that you can always get back on the horse. No shame, no strings attached. Doesn't matter if you slipped for a month or two! There is no such thing as a point of no return on this.

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

For me more mania and anger.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Sure, I'm bitter and angry. Been so for a long time. Still sad, too, though. Don't think the sadness, bitterness, and anger are mutually exclusive.

 

[Hurt]

Yup. I am angry all the time but angry at myself not at others. People has nothing to do with my stupidity and dumbness. Wrong choices all the f*cking time.

 

[jamie_]

a cycle that goes back and forth through the emotions recycling all the time. i prefer the sadness to the anger, i can at least fall into a depressive sleep with sadness but with anger i feel irritated and can't do anything but write and vent and try and reach out. anger eventually recycles back to sadness when my brain reaches the the threshold where it is too fatigued to be angry

 

[come to dust]

Yes. I am angry at society for its injustice, and jealous and bitter towards physically attractive people for having what I don't have.

 

[Klophy]

Yeah, my sadness has turned into bitterness, envy, anger mostly at myself and etc.

I wish it were possible to fix the mistakes i made.

 

[almaranthine]

depends on the kind of day/night I'm having... but for me, emotions aren't permanent, they all lead to this feeling of emptiness within.

 

[jamie_]

jealous and bitter towards physically attractive people for having what I don't have

what is it exactly that you don't have? you have a partner, no? sorry i just don't understand. you were on my profile saying how easy it should be with my face and build to get another partner so i shouldn't be sad about anything else. so surely if it's all just about getting partners theres nothing to be upset about?

 

[come to dust]

what is it exactly that you don't have? you have a partner, no? sorry i just don't understand. you were on my profile saying how easy it should be with my face and build to get another partner so i shouldn't be sad about anything else. so surely if it's all just about getting partners theres nothing to be upset about?

Everything.

Attractive people get as many partners as they want right off the bat from puberty. I've been single right up until age 27.


Attractive people get more friends, get paid higher wages, get get better sentence outcomes in court, get treated better by cops, by banks, by everyone. You can be a fucking serial killer and if you're attractive people will send you love letters in jail. And you'll have easy sources of money because you can always model or do an only fans.

I'm sick of only seeing models cast in movies rather than good actors just because they have a square jawline and abs.

If you really want to know more about how much worse off ugly people are, read this book. It's all documented in research studies. Amazon product ASIN 0691158177 Beauty Pays by Daniel Hamermesch, an economics professor.

And the worst thing is everyone acts like people are all equal and attractive people aren't hugely privileged. If people acknlowdged how serious lookism is, like they do for racism or sexism, I could probably bear it. But they don't, and they just gaslight ugly people.

 

[whatevs]

Bitterness and anger are just another way of sadness to manifest, one that feels more invigorating and less defeating. Of course, giving in to this sentiment, while safeguarding you from bed-ridden melancholy, pulls you further and further into 'the Dark Side of the Force". Misanthropy isn' t just an edgy concept for the immature, it is a very serious state of mind that will make you evil. I admit that I became evil to an extent, I was very disappointed when the fake pandemic didn't decimate the people in my surroudings. And to this day I feel that a part of me would be joyful partaking in a violent uprising and decorating lamp posts with 'authority figures'.

I mean, when you have people like me walking around looking reasonably tame and you cage us in our homes while blasting criminal disinformation 24/7 in the mass media and have police thugs patrolling the streets to harass innocent civilians for more than a month while the majority applauds this unconscionable dystopia, you will only convince us that misanthropy was logical and that we only need to wait for an opportunity to explode.

 

[WhatPowerIs]

It just constantly loops back for me. It goes from sadness to anger and bitterness to fear and then to sadness again.

Bitterness and anger are just another way of sadness to manifest, one that feels more invigorating and less defeating. Of course, giving in to this sentiment, while safeguarding you from bed-ridden melancholy, pulls you further and further into 'the Dark Side of the Force". Misanthropy isn' t just an edgy concept for the immature, it is a very serious state of mind that will make you evil. I admit that I became evil to an extent, I was very disappointed when the fake pandemic didn't decimate the people in my surroudings. And to this day I feel that a part of me would be joyful partaking in a violent uprising and decorating lamp posts with 'authority figures'.

I mean, when you have people like me walking around looking reasonably tame and you cage us in our homes while blasting criminal disinformation 24/7 in the mass media and have police thugs patrolling the streets to harass innocent civilians for more than a month while the majority applauds this unconscionable dystopia, you will only convince us that misanthropy was logical and that we only need to wait for an opportunity to explode.

I am a bit of a misanthrope already I feel. I really do feel like it's hard for me to extend my sympathies to anybody who isn't immediately close to me (and those people are very few in numbers). I have some issues to work out but that makes sense given that I'm on a suicide forum. Am I evil?

 

[whatevs]

It just constantly loops back for me. It goes from sadness to anger and bitterness to fear and then to sadness again.

I am a bit of a misanthrope already I feel. I really do feel like it's hard for me to extend my sympathies to anybody who isn't immediately close to me (and those people are very few in numbers). I have some issues to work out but that makes sense given that I'm on a suicide forum. Am I evil?

Just a little bit, young Padowan, you need to harbor more hatred and anger to really master the Dark Side of the Force and be able to shoot electricity from your fingers. You might also become horribly ugly, I admit that´s a downside.

People ARE scum, however. I think it's hard not to hate them knowing what kind of society and world could exist with just some self-awareness and honesty. Never a perfect utopia, but at least something remotely dignified and sustainable.

 

[Nothingtoadd]

My anger turned to sadness