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Thatdude
Life is temporary, death is permanent
- Sep 26, 2019
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Once in a while I get a dream that makes me happy. Only to wake up and realize it was just a dream and my life sucks. Like my favorite thing to do is to dream because I tend to know if I'm awake by knowing near instantly if I hate this life. Hate this loneliness, this failure, and so on. The only thing that gives me pure happiness is that one day my suffering will end when I die.
For example last night I dreamed I was with some pretty girl and was happy. I was introducing her to my parents and by that moment I woke up. Only to realize how lonely I am and a future that will very likely never happen.
In the past I thought many of my happy dreams was predictions on the future. It pushed me to keep going and push for it. Dreams like owning a place, and having family over. Where now I know the monsters most of my family are, and I am even more from owning a place. Like I will never have the leave it to beaver vibe which made me happy in that one dream, just as much as I most likely will never be able to get out of this loneliness and worry.
I hope I die soon.
For example last night I dreamed I was with some pretty girl and was happy. I was introducing her to my parents and by that moment I woke up. Only to realize how lonely I am and a future that will very likely never happen.
In the past I thought many of my happy dreams was predictions on the future. It pushed me to keep going and push for it. Dreams like owning a place, and having family over. Where now I know the monsters most of my family are, and I am even more from owning a place. Like I will never have the leave it to beaver vibe which made me happy in that one dream, just as much as I most likely will never be able to get out of this loneliness and worry.
I hope I die soon.