Harsh reality of leaving

[Yym1]

Even though I had a acc for a like 2 days I was on this site for a like a month and the reality of it I have to leave and I'm probably never gonna show anyone this side of me I'm always gonna act happy and I'm gonna have a shitty short life and the truth is I'm so scared all the time but I guess mnay people die without showing there actual self

 

[Valky]

,,The Japanese say you have three faces.
The first face, you show to the world.
The second face, you show to your close friends and your family.
The third face, you never show anyone. It is the truest reflection of who you are!''

Tho sickness is not a part of us and therefore often not even our own emotions. Yet we hide it, to protect ourselves and others. Sometimes it can be good and sometimes it can be a bad decision. But sadly, when it comes to ctb, people won't understand most of the time.

 

[Yym1]

,,The Japanese say you have three faces.
The first face, you show to the world.
The second face, you show to your close friends and your family.
The third face, you never show anyone. It is the truest reflection of who you are!''

Tho sickness is not a part of us and therefore often not even our own emotions. Yet we hide it, to protect ourselves and others. Sometimes it can be good and sometimes it can be a bad decision. But sadly, when it comes to ctb, people won't understand most of the time.

Man I'm so fucking scared I don't want to actually want to leave what do I do i just want someone to come and tell me I can change that i'm a good guy

 

[Valky]

Man I'm so fucking scared I don't want to actually want to leave what do I do i just want someone to come and tell me I can change that i'm a good guy

If you don't feel ready then there is a reason for it. There is no need to rush anything.

 

[usernamerequired]

I feel the same way. I've had this account for way too long and no one even knows about me having these thoughts, feeling this way. Everyone knows me as the chill happy person that they love to be around, but little do they know.. I'm scared of life and what's gonna happen, of what I'm gonna do. You're not alone in this

 

[just_so_done]

For so many its not about actually wanting to die, its about stopping the pain and cbt feels like the only way. but its not, there are things you can still try if you choose. you still have the capacity to change, every minute of every day we have a chance to do something different even if its as small as taking one long breath. I don't know you but from the chat earlier you seem like a good person and worth seeing if your circumstances can chance. Ctb will always be an option and like Valkyrae said there is no rush in making such a big permanent decision.

 

[Yym1]

For so many its not about actually wanting to die, its about stopping the pain and cbt feels like the only way. but its not, there are things you can still try if you choose. you still have the capacity to change, every minute of every day we have a chance to do something different even if its as small as taking one long breath. I don't know you but from the chat earlier you seem like a good person and worth seeing if your circumstances can chance. Ctb will always be an option and like Valkyrae said there is no rush in making such a big permanent decision.

OK I disable my acc like 7 times just to u disable it but yeah man I just need to struggle for a bit longer so I can make change

I feel the same way. I've had this account for way too long and no one even knows about me having these thoughts, feeling this way. Everyone knows me as the chill happy person that they love to be around, but little do they know.. I'm scared of life and what's gonna happen, of what I'm gonna do. You're not alone in this

I always felt like I was alone but I now I know there's so much like me

I feel the same way. I've had this account for way too long and no one even knows about me having these thoughts, feeling this way. Everyone knows me as the chill happy person that they love to be around, but little do they know.. I'm scared of life and what's gonna happen, of what I'm gonna do. You're not alone in this

I always felt like I was alone but I now I know there's so much like me

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence certainly is so unnecessarily cruel and of course it really is so tiring feeling trapped here but anyway I wish you the best. I certainly think it's a good idea continuing to hide from other people that you wish to die as we exist in a world where suicide is so stigmatised and where opening up about wanting to be gone can very easily make existing much worse.