Hard time with family

[timewarp24]

Hi all,

I joined the site last last year and have browsed since.

A biological weapon was used on me last year and it messed my body up. I've been suicidal ever since then and hope to go when the time is right.

However, the difficulty I have is that I've confided to my family about my plans and despite my constant suffering they are insistent that I stay alive, it is this guilt that is keeping me here. Does anyone else have a similar predicament? Having people who care about me so much feels like a burden and it is just sustaining my suffering when I could end it.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Luckily, I don't have anyone keeping me here any longer.

But, when you say "biological weapon", what do you mean? Was this administered to you by a doctor? Were you in a war where the enemy used some kind of biological weapon? I'm just having a hard time understanding what that means.