It's not happy, there is nothing happy about being tortured in this existence and every second is torture to be conscious, all that this evil existence does is cause harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, I don't see what's so happy about being burdened with this painful, deeply undesirable and unnecessary existence that there was never a need for.
I just always suffer so much from being trapped in this dreadful, torturous existence that just causes harm to existing beings, another year just means another year of existing beings in agony every second and the suffering this existence causes is endless, there's no happiness in how humans punish others by burdening them with this torturous existence in the first place in this horrific reality where it's a crime to die painlessly, it's so terrifying to me how the suffering can continue for decades longer just for one to end up tortured in agony from old age, for me only non-existence is positive, I'll only be at peace in non-existence.