Happiness within the sadness

[laiduponit]

Yeah, the title sounds edgy and weird but the first step to recovery, at least of for myself was to change the way I thought about my sadness. I'm now 20, in university and no idea of where I'm going in life and honestly, it is the best I've felt in a long time. Not having a direct route, plan and path has made me reconsider so much in my life.

Since 13 I was suicidal, attempted once and then told my mother. In which she didn't care, since then it was clear the world was pessimistic towards me. Though now, for the first time in forever I can say I'm content and on some days even happier.

I'm not a psychologist or someone that can help people out of sadness, because the only person able to do that, as weird as it sounds is yourself.

Reason for the thread? Honestly, just to say this site helped me, despite the bad press, the annoying cancellation threats. It has helped me to vent a couple of months ago, there is hope for everyone, whether that is through suicide or not.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I do believe, that for some people at least, the key is to accepting things somehow and owning it. It's not ideal and things will always be an issue, but it's got to be healthier then suppressing everything with medication. I guess this is modulated depending on the point where acceptance becomes impossible because your mental state renders you non-functional, and I guess that will be different for everyone.
Personally, I now try my best to FEEL my feeling, compared to how I used to stoically suppress everything. It means I'm far more emotional than I used to be, but then it's all gone. I'm sure there are flaws in this approach, but I'd rather this than be drugged.