Hello! 8 Days until my bus deperature! I'm in the middle of making my final plans regarding my method. I have a pull up bar, which is 1,95m (for reference: I'm 1,57) and a 5m 10mm jute rope on the way, since all the other ropes in my house were too flexible. Is the rope good enough? Is it too thick? It should be able to hold 52kg right? Is it possible for me to do a full suspension on the pull up bar if i make the distance between the noose and anchor point small enough? Is it better to tie the rope around my neck first and then get off the stool or should i slip my head through the noose after i tied it (I would use a slipknot in both cases)? Should i jump or get off the stool slowly? Is it possible to get rid/lessen SI through alcohol before the bus departure?
That's a lot of questions. :) Here is what I think.
Height: That height difference might not be enough to do full suspension. The knots and the noose take up some height too. And some additional height is lost at the time of putting on load as well. But doing partial in a standing position can still be good enough.
Rope: A 10 mm jute rope can have a breaking strength of about 400 to 600 kg. The working load capacity is usually the breaking strength divided by 7. Given your weight, that rope should be strong enough. The thickness is fine. It's not too thick.
Tying the noose: It is called the Noose Knot, which should not be confused with the Slip Knot or a Hangman's Noose. The only difference between the Noose Knot and the Slip Knot is which end is the sliding end, but it's an important difference. (Here is a
video explaining the difference.) You can tie it around your neck first, but that can be risky and trickier to do. I would tie the knots first, and prepare the setup fully before using it.
Also, don't forget to add a stopper knot to the Noose Knot. (Btw, a Noose Knot with a stopper knot can also be called an Arbor Knot.) See these videos:
Video 1,
Video 2.
Stepping off: This is just my subjective opinion. Speaking for myself, I plan to lean into the noose first to pretension it, but then I want to apply full force by kicking the support away. I don't want to jump, but I want to apply full pressure quickly and decisively. Based on experimenting with passing out, being too careful and doing it slowly doesn't work well.
Alcohol: I'm not sure about this. T. Joiner, a suicide researcher, says that the majority of people are sober during their attempt. But I've also seen research stating that alcohol use is much more common prior to an attempt. Personally, I plan to be fully sober, out of principle. That said, I imagine a little bit of alcohol might help. I would definitely not get drunk, because that can lead to making errors.
(EDIT: Added links to videos.)