Hanging outside at freezing temperatures is tough

[Exhausted546]

Transport is currently a problem for me, I can't even go to the woods anymore. Thought about hanging on one of the local Parks playground things. Its morbid but it's my best option. Today is the warmest it'll be in the next couple weeks ,around -20 Celcius

I stepped out 20 mins ago, the rope and noose ready in my backpack, 5 mins walk in, I'm cold and having second thoughts. Despite it being nearly 2am, the spots I can hang from aren't isolated, they're in full view of any passing person/car that may pass anytime. I retraced my steps back home, now I'm trying to convince myself to go do it regardless

I hate this. I'd do it at home if the house wasn't getting sold. It'll fuck up the market value

I'd walk to the woods (1h walk) of it wasn't freezing outside.

Guess I gotta go to bed,I got class tomorrow and a meeting with the housing office @ uni. I can't even afford the transport to the woods anymore, let alone to university lol.

Idk, hanging is one thing but hanging in a somewhat public place at freezing temperatures feel like a different beast. I wonder if it's unusual. This is all so tiring

 

[Terrible_Life]

Hey I can absolutely understand you. When I think about suicide I want this ideal situation where everything is already prepared and I could just put the noose on my neck kick the chair away and die because I realized this whole preparations for suicide and then also on the actual ctb day the whole stuff that needs to be done this alle robs lots of energy and it also creates a lot of stress and all these factors then lead to us not doing it and that is logical to me because we're highly suicidal we suffer every day we have very little energy left now how could we do this huge project with all its organization aspect when we're already so much out of energy…….

 

[Exhausted546]

Hey I can absolutely understand you. When I think about suicide I want this ideal situation where everything is already prepared and I could just put the noose on my neck kick the chair away and die because I realized this whole preparations for suicide and then also on the actual ctb day the whole stuff that needs to be done this alle robs lots of energy and it also creates a lot of stress and all these factors then lead to us not doing it and that is logical to me because we're highly suicidal we suffer every day we have very little energy left now how could we do this huge project with all its organization aspect when we're already so much out of energy…….

I kicked the chair once but the setup failed, my feet touched the ground. I figured out what was wrong with the set up,have a test putting an object in the noose and pulling it with my entire weight, it was solid but I observed first hand how absolutely lethal it'd be (it was almost impossible to undo the rope over the object) ,decided against doing it at home.

I now know the next time I have the rope around my neck will be the last for sure. But as you said it's hard. I have to admit that even if I was in a motel with my set up, realizing that there's no coming back after kicking the chair does make it hard

 

[asthedayends00]

Drink alcohol and stay warm then just end up passing out outside.

 

[Exhausted546]

Drink alcohol and stay warm then just end up passing out outside.

Thought of it too but people let me know it could go EXTREMELY wrong