OutOfThisBody

OutOfThisBody

What kind of cruel god would put me in this body?
Aug 5, 2024
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So I half attempted yesterday but because I had fasted for so long it was too hard for me to get the tape off of the sn I had stored and I was so hungry and tired I decided to nap and fell asleep. Waking up around 5 pm I had this crazy indescribable faint feeling, like there wasn't enough blood going to my hands and my body felt restless and uncomfortable, and it really scared me, so I ate a bunch of food thinking this would help and slept again. I woke up at midnight after that and at first felt fine but the feeling came back and so I ate some more and went back to sleep hoping eating and sleeping would help. I was also scared this whole time about dying, like if I slept too much I would die or if I ate too much.

I haven't seen anything online describing exactly what this feeling is, it might be from me attempting, that It caused me extreme.terror I surpressed until I gave up at.it out of exhaustion and hunger.

Getting up to that point where I gave up, the fears about pain, about calling the hospital and waiting for them and the posibility of getting in trouble, were being suppressed because I was focused on attempting foremost.

Can anyone relate or have advice to make the feeling go away?
 
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GoSan1

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Nov 7, 2024
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It sounds like severe hypoglycemia from the fasting, but I might be wrong.

As for the feeling, it was either Instinct or maybe you still want to live? It is normal to fear dying, we all do it. But it is up to you to reflect on this and think about if you truly want to continue to die or if that was a part of you still clinging to life. It's a difficult situation you're in, and I would probably fall into an inner conflict too... Sorry you couldn't find peace even in your attempt, I hope that you too can find that ending to this pain...
 
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