Had my first ECT session this morning

[Star67]

Just got home from my first session. It went alright though I felt a bit dazed after from the anesthetic. Soon after I woke up I felt tears streaming down my face as I thought "I can't believe my life's come to this". A big part of me doesn't want to get better. I've lost so much of my life to sadness that many times I feel like I don't know anything else. All my 20's gone. The supposed best times of your life passed me by like looking out the window on a train. I just want to call it quits and leave all this behind. I hope you all have a wonderful day today, sending love your way.

 

[WallTermite]

Wish you the best.

 

[LetMeOut67]

I've asked for it twice and they've rejected me.
I told them.I'd kill myself if they didn't give it me.
I hope it can help you.

 

[truehappiness]

Just got home from my first session. It went alright though I felt a bit dazed after from the anesthetic. Soon after I woke up I felt tears streaming down my face as I thought "I can't believe my life's come to this". A big part of me doesn't want to get better. I've lost so much of my life to sadness that many times I feel like I don't know anything else. All my 20's gone. The supposed best times of your life passed me by like looking out the window on a train. I just want to call it quits and leave all this behind. I hope you all have a wonderful day today, sending love your way.

I am sorry if I sound insensitive.
But could you explain how it was?

Did it actually manage to reset your brain? Make you happy again? Make your brain work more healthy again?

And also. Did it have the side effect of removing memories and affect your personality?

 

[Ashu]

I am sorry if I sound insensitive.
But could you explain how it was?

Did it actually manage to reset your brain? Make you happy again? Make your brain work more healthy again?

And also. Did it have the side effect of removing memories and affect your personality?

I think it generally takes many days for the effects to begin to appear.

 

[Forveleth]

Did it actually manage to reset your brain? Make you happy again? Make your brain work more healthy again?

And also. Did it have the side effect of removing memories and affect your personality?

ECT is generally done in a series of 6-12 treatments. As this was only their first treatment, it will be a while before they feel effects/know if it worked.

 

[truehappiness]

ECT is generally done in a series of 6-12 treatments. As this was only their first treatment, it will be a while before they feel effects/know if it worked.

Ahhhh okay fair enough.

I am still hoping of finding a way to completely purge my brain.

Not physically dying but mentally

 

[Star67]

I am sorry if I sound insensitive.
But could you explain how it was?

Did it actually manage to reset your brain? Make you happy again? Make your brain work more healthy again?

And also. Did it have the side effect of removing memories and affect your personality?

This was my first of 12 session. I can't say I feel any different but I believe it takes a few sessions to notice any effects. I don't feel happier and can't say I've noticed any memory loss. I made a few notes about some important memories in my recent life prior to the appointment and I can still remember them fine. I'll keep you posted as to how the sessions continue to go.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Huh, I didn't know you could do it outpatient. Both times I went to the hospital people there were getting ECT. Their hospital stays were long, two weeks at least, for the whole program or session or whatever. I couldn't stand that, too boring.

 

[webb&flow]

Wishing you the absolute best I hope that the sprouts for the growths of healing may be seen soon in a day to come from these treatments, for you!

P.S. Did you find the experience quite shocking?

 

[Star67]

Huh, I didn't know you could do it outpatient. Both times I went to the hospital people there were getting ECT. Their hospital stays were long, two weeks at least, for the whole program or session or whatever. I couldn't stand that, too boring

Huh, I didn't know you could do it outpatient. Both times I went to the hospital people there were getting ECT. Their hospital stays were long, two weeks at least, for the whole program or session or whatever. I couldn't stand that, too boring.

From what I saw today it seemed most patients were outpatient and only 1 or 2 were inpatient. I was only at the hospital for about 2 hours, half that time was the nurses/doctors getting ready and there was someone in line before me. Your day after is mostly written off, you're not supposed to drive or do much.

 

[LetMeOut67]

Just got home from my first session. It went alright though I felt a bit dazed after from the anesthetic. Soon after I woke up I felt tears streaming down my face as I thought "I can't believe my life's come to this". A big part of me doesn't want to get better. I've lost so much of my life to sadness that many times I feel like I don't know anything else. All my 20's gone. The supposed best times of your life passed me by like looking out the window on a train. I just want to call it quits and leave all this behind. I hope you all have a wonderful day today, sending love your way.

Did you ask for ECT?
Or did they suggest it?
Did you go through years of trying everything else, medication, counselling etc?

Hope you don't mind answering.

 

[Star67]

Did you ask for ECT?
Or did they suggest it?
Did you go through years of trying everything else, medication, counselling etc?

Hope you don't mind answering.

I don't mind at all. I've been on meds since 2019 and have tried countless ones at different doses. At my last psychiatric appointment, I was referred for either ECT or TMS. I pushed a bit for ECT seeing as it has a higher chance of working (so they say). I've been in therapy on and off for years as well.

 

[lilb0wpeep]

I did 12+(I don't remember if we decided to do 15 or just give up) rounds at the age of 17. While it didn't seem to be very/at all any effective at the time, and any positive effect there may have been has long since passed, I do think they're still hope for others. For a month or so after I completed all my rounds of ECT I did feel like I "had the capability of being happy/at peace/to get better" which I have almost never truly felt. Maybe I could've made the most of that feeling if I had been in different circumstances but none the less it did create change in my life.(change that has since brutally crumbled and fallen, but we try not to think about that…)
I hope that it works out for you and that you're able to make the most of whatever the outcome is, and that the side effects on your memory/'brain processing' aren't bad. I absolutely fell you on the waking up crying so sad about how this is what your "life's come to". It always made me feel the same way. I think an important thing about that is to treat yourself with care and kindness rather than to submit to any negative spiral of shame, embarrassment, or 'self pity'. I definitely think that's something that I should have done sooner.

 

[fadedghost]

This was my first of 12 session. I can't say I feel any different but I believe it takes a few sessions to notice any effects. I don't feel happier and can't say I've noticed any memory loss. I made a few notes about some important memories in my recent life prior to the appointment and I can still remember them fine. I'll keep you posted as to how the sessions continue to go.

don't do anything more, the memory loss is permanent and it kills brain cells. don't do it! please!

 

[Matchaaa]

I wishing you all the best, I hope your treatment goes well, that you don't experience any side effects, and that it's very effective.