Venting had a whole fucking breakdown to my mom about how much i hate everything about myself. wtf

[dental]

i'm home from college for the summer and i really am not enjoying living with my parents again. i was tired, had already smoked a bowl, and was already in a depressive spiral of self-hatred, so when she decided to come talk to me it all spilled out. i genuinely think she's concerned i'm going to attempt again now, and the way she's being so cautious and concerned around me right now makes me feel SO shitty for actually being on the verge of an attempt. almost like she's guilt-tripping me, and i hate that it's working to an extent. but that only makes me hate myself more and want to get rid of it forever, so. jesus this feels incomprehensible i'm still very stoned and emotionally exhausted, so sorry. but yeah i just want to fall asleep and never wake up. et cetera.

 

[SMmetalhead36]

wow! Although I cannot relate to this, it sounds so hard. Is your mom aware of any previous attempts you may have had?