I can't tell you how many times in a day I think about CTB. I just walked myself down to the lake. I know I can't swim. I tried to drink something. I just know I can't swim and I can't do that. I am looking for quick and fast and have given up painless. I messed up my life and I am confident no one around me can help. I keep messing up others lives and I just want it to stop. I have a gun I bought some years ago. I only when yo the shooting range once, and shot it probably one more time. I am not sure about where to aim. But I want to be sure I am gone. It's a Springfield hellcat. I imagine I only get one shot. I want to do it in the dead of the night. I plan to drive my car somewhere and pull the trigger. I have extreme social anxiety and can't stand talking to anyone. I have told people I want to kill myself so no one should see it as a surprise. I live with my boyfriend but I'm not going to put him through this. I would love a gun expert to talk to me and let me know where I can aim. Again, other options have been considered. I don't have money for SN nor the means to acquire it. I can't hang myself there's no place to do it, partial or full suspension. If anyone is up. I live in the United States and I can't want to log out now.
knowledgeseeking
Member
- Apr 5, 2025
- 48
Sorry for your pain bro. Gun is actually one method I have been considering. I've also got a 9mm. I read people that don't live in places like where I'm at in TX wish they had our kind of access to guns, but like all methods a gun has several major downsides. Ideally you'll want to hit your brainstem. That is the quickest way out. Most people I have read have tried to accomplish this by going through the roof of the mouth and pointing up towards the brain. I don't know that I would personally choose this position as I personally feel that if you don't aim correctly you could just disfigure yourself horribly. My plan would be shoot just behind and a little above the ear. I choose that position thinking that I would have more control and it would be effected to go through both hemispheres of the brain. I have often thought about using my gun to end it, but I do worry about being saved or ending up disabled, but honestly I think a shot where I mentioned would more than likely do the job. I also thought taking a handful of acetaminophen 20 minutes before would be a way to thin the blood, increasing the rate I would bleed out. It's considerate of you not to do it where anyone you love has to find the mess. That has been a main reason for me not to do this method. Seeing me with a gun shot to the head or even the mess left behind would be traumatizing.
I wish you peace in journey.
I wish you peace in journey.
locked*n*loaded
Archangel
- Apr 15, 2022
- 9,254
Actually, going through the roof of the mouth provides "access" to the Amygdala, a very vital component of the brain and vital to life, but it's not the brainstem, itself. The brainstem is deeper within the brain and consists of three parts - the Midbrain, Pons, and Medulla Oblongata. You'd be hard-pressed to take it out with a single bullet from any handgun, but the Amygdala is doable. Ofc, using a shotgun with buckshot increases the odds of hitting it. Just a FWIW.
knowledgeseeking
Member
- Apr 5, 2025
- 48
Thanks for adding the diagram along with some solid intel. Good to know. I am by no means any sort of expert on GSW. I only put out what I imagine which I could do if taking that method.
omega706
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- Oct 28, 2025
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Redhead712
Member
- Oct 17, 2025
- 14
There are some ways to jailbreak chatgpt and get it o stop giving you the silly "Hey I can tell you this bc it bad or something" Warning it does.
If I could actually have a gun I wouldn't consider any other method.
Do you need instructions to use a gun?
Do you need instructions to use a gun?
traingirl
A Farewell Transmission
- Oct 7, 2025
- 198
Not rlly but it would help to watch a YouTube video or two to familiarize yourself and revolvers are super simple to use that's what I got
traingirl
A Farewell Transmission
- Oct 7, 2025
- 198
No, it's not sarcasm, it's the truth. There are plenty of reports of minors stealing their parents' guns and committing suicide without even knowing which end the bullet goes in. This demonstrates the formidable practicality of the method.
RimeOfTheAncient
Already Dead
- Oct 17, 2025
- 117
It depends on the gun, but yeah, look up a youtube video, many are as simple as putting in the magazine, racking it, and pulling the trigger.
