Help Gun as a birthday present?

[sugarb]

My 19th birthday is coming up in a bit over a week and I just now thought of this

I don't have any history of suicidality (that anyone knows of), I'm not a minor, I'm seen as fairly responsible/stable and being able to CTB before I even start college would be amazing. Or, if nothing else, it would cut down how long it'd take and the whole absolute secrecy and needing a car part.

I talked about being interested in buying a gun with my dad briefly a few days ago (in a very not-suicidal way, obviously) and he wasn't as immediately against me doing it as I expected. I think this is sort of viable.

The only hairballs are

1. I've never really shown interest in guns before. Might be suspicious.
2. I don't have a driver's license, just a permit. Not sure that's valid ID. But I'd have parent signature
3. The guilt. This one's of the most concern to me. My dad/mom buying my CTB method for me or taking me along the way would probably A. weigh heavy on them B. might damage their familial relationships. But at the end of the day I really want out and it's going to do damage no matter how I do it.

Thoughts? Bad idea?

 

[Ash]

If they're genuinely loving and caring and good people, then don't do it that way. Not if you're a decent person.

 

[GoatHerder]

Ask for money for your birthday then buy it yourself?

 

[sugarb]

Ask for money for your birthday then buy it yourself?

I don't have the means to get to a store and I'm unsure if a permit is a valid ID. I have money.

 

[sugarb]

If they're genuinely loving and caring and good people, then don't do it that way. Not if you're a decent person.

Is it more decent to walk to the train tracks and off myself that way?

How about overdosing on pills from the medicine cabinet? Hanging myself with an extension cord? My parents bought those, too.

Or waiting until I'm able to drive myself- potentially years- racking up college fees all the while?

I'm asking for thoughts and input on the viability of this plan, not judgement. Call me indecent if you want, but this is a lot kinder to everyone involved than a whole host of other options.

 

[Ash]

Is it more decent to walk to the train tracks and off myself that way?

How about overdosing on pills from the medicine cabinet? Hanging myself with an extension cord? My parents bought those, too.

Or waiting until I'm able to drive myself- potentially years- racking up college fees all the while?

I'm asking for thoughts and input on the viability of this plan, not judgement. Call me indecent if you want, but this is a lot kinder to everyone involved than a whole host of other options.

You're the one who mentioned guilt. If you're looking for someone to say "yes, do ask your dad to buy you a gun for your birthday so you can promptly use it to kill yourself" then I'm not that person. There are plenty of inexpensive methods if you're certain that 18 years is the most you can bear to live on this earth. And you say you've got your own money. So since you've thrown the question out to the internet, those are literally my thoughts. It is indeed a bad idea.

 

[sugarb]

You're the one who mentioned guilt. If you're looking for someone to say "yes, do ask your dad to buy you a gun for your birthday so you can promptly use it to kill yourself" then I'm not that person. There are plenty of inexpensive methods if you're certain that 18 years is the most you can bear to live on this earth. And you say you've got your own money. So since you've thrown the question out to the internet, those are literally my thoughts. It is indeed a bad idea.

I was mentioning that I was aware it wasn't the kindest move so people wouldn't bring it up, because as I've said the point of the post is to get input from others on viability.

I'm looking for someone to say "that could work, yes" or "you should not do that, in my experience it's suspicious and I was caught mid-attempt" or anything that isn't related to the morality of it that'd help me one way or another.

This is the internet, yes, but it's not an open-ended thread. Please don't give your take on my moral character, question my maturity or suggest another method. they're off topic and none of your business

That said I apologize if I was rude last night or if this comes off that way, I've been in a bad mood lately