Discussion guilt

[immolation]

I've felt so guilty lately about my suicidal ideation. Does anyone else feel like this? I literally never cared before, but something about recently is making me feel like a huge selfish asshole for wanting to die. I feel like a waste of life and resources for not getting it over with sooner. I just wish I never existed so I didn't have to go through this suicide bullshit. I'm making myself wait a few months so I know I really want it but it's so overwhelming sometimes. Occasionally a small moment makes me rethink but I'm always suicidal again by the next morning.

 

[orvreader]

I feel the same, and I still feel selfish sometimes, but ultimately we should be in control of at least one thing in our life, right? Being in control of our own death would be nice to have.