Ravel
tired
- Dec 13, 2021
- 136
i know it sounds kind of stupid but i would like to kill myself painfully if i had the guts, sometimes i imagine doing sepukku, or other painful method as a form of punishment. Of course i will never have the guts for it, my method will be sn or partial hanging. The reason for this is that I feel guilty 24/7 for becoming such a pathetic person and being such a burden on my family. I really hate myself. I feel like I don't deserve to live and it's not a matter of low self esteem, I've done things in the past that I'm not proud of and I can't forget.
I can't stand to see people full of potential, dreams, good people dying so soon and I, dumb, without ambitions, dreams, still alive. I feel ashamed to be alive. I will definitely make up for this by donating my organs when I ctb.
I can't stand to see people full of potential, dreams, good people dying so soon and I, dumb, without ambitions, dreams, still alive. I feel ashamed to be alive. I will definitely make up for this by donating my organs when I ctb.