Venting guess who ordered Nitrogen !!!!!!

[The Tablet]

reached my breaking point today. begged my mom to let me stop taking my meds and she just proceeded to gaslight and yell at me claiming that i'm better with the medication when in reality, they're turning me into someone i'm not (tired, dull and slow). she also said she was looking into getting me into some kind of rehab? thanks but no thanks.

boyfriend isn't responding to my texts, i'm guessing he's as sick of me as everyfuckingone else is.

idk. i'm tired.

if my mom intercepts this package, i will kill or at the very least maim her.

i guess obsessing over metal bands couldn't keep me alive. ah well. sucks to suck.

i gotta check when this things gonna arrive, will keep you updated :D

 

[outrider567]

No violence please--hope your order arrives without incident--How big a tank?

 

[The Tablet]

tfw you hit "post" before you're finished typing

anyways i got my hands on a knife! i'm gonna keep this very close to me should the need to stabby stab arise. i'd ctb with the knife right here and now, but i know better now ;)

No violence please--hope your order arrives without incident--How big a tank?

tis a 34 liter steel cylinder :)

 

[outrider567]

tfw you hit "post" before you're finished typing

anyways i got my hands on a knife! i'm gonna keep this very close to me should the need to stabby stab arise. i'd ctb with the knife right here and now, but i know better now ;)

tis a 34 liter steel cylinder :)

what country are you in?

 

[The Tablet]

what country are you in?

i'm in canada. not gonna say exactly where because i do NOT need a wellness check called :P

 

[outrider567]

i'm in canada. not gonna say exactly where because i do NOT need a wellness check called :P

lol I understand--I had mine

 

[dimstar]

Please don't hurt others. The world has enough pain. I understand the frustration but please only hurt willing participants like yourself. Is it close to someones birthday? Could say you have a gift coming you dont want anyone to see. I stalked my mailbox on the day of my sn delivery because I didnt want anyone stealing my package so I get it but please dont hurt anyone.

 

[outrider567]

tfw you hit "post" before you're finished typing

anyways i got my hands on a knife! i'm gonna keep this very close to me should the need to stabby stab arise. i'd ctb with the knife right here and now, but i know better now ;)

tis a 34 liter steel cylinder :)

Sorry, in America we have cu ft, mine is 125 cu ft which is 3500 Liters--Don't know the metric conversion to imperial--My steel cylinder is 69 lbs

 

[FuneralCry]

I think if you get locked up if you decide to do that to someone else then I'm pretty sure you will struggle to ctb in your desired way then.
But anyway I wish you the best, it must be a relief knowing you could soon have a way to leave this horrible world.

 

[The Tablet]

still no reply from my bf, so i decided to do him a favor and just cut him off. i'm banned from two more places as well, because hey.... what's the use in feeling guilty when i'm just gonna die soon?

 

[The Tablet]

I think if you get locked up if you decide to do that to someone else then I'm pretty sure you will struggle to ctb in your desired way then.
But anyway I wish you the best, it must be a relief knowing you could soon have a way to leave this horrible world.

it'll only happen if my mother gets in the way. i don't give enough of a shit to kill her otherwise don't worry