Venting Got everything I need.. now what..

[virtualdreamplaza]

A while ago I received the SN and some anti puking pills. It's hard to believe I pretty much got all I need, waiting there in my cupboard.
I have shared this information with a good friend of mine. It's a hard topic to talk about, him and my family really want me to go to therapy and try to help myself. I don't got a lot of hope really but I don't mind trying before having my way out.
So I need to go to the psychiatrist on the 18.8, but life is so hard. I wake up everyday and I'm like I can't do this anymore. I look in the mirror and start to cry upon seeing myself, I have deep deep issues with myself and with everything this world got to offer. I'm just full of hate. I don't know how can I keep going. I just want to leave everything

 

[pretzelsandballoons]

don't beat urself up if u want to go sooner. I may be wrong but u seem prepared yk?
For what's it's worth, I'm rlly sorry.
yk if u really want to go then u gotta go.
Don't hesitate to lean onto ur friend for support, they seem like a rlly good friend. Yk, they're supposed to b there for you! That's what it's all abt baybee
don't b *too* hard on urself, don't go beyond your limit. you derived to have rest okay? rest is important.
with all this said, for what it's worth.
and I'm drunk
Take it easy sleazy biddy