Discussion Gore seems to be the only thing grounding me currently

[deepsweetdiver]

Just as the title says. I spend so much time now trying to find a video that will soothe me, and the videos just get worse and worse. I don't wish I was suffering like the people in the videos, and I'm not saying that these videos are a cocomelon to me, but they're currently the only thing that actually makes me realize I'm existing. I feel like I'm watching a tv broadcast of my life from some void, but when I watch any violent stuff, I feel like I'm me in the moment, not some viewer. I'm not realizing how precious life is!!! and how thankful I am to be living!!!, but I don't even know what I'm feeling.

I remember being 14 when the ronnie mcnutt video first started circulating the internet, and a friend told me to look it up. Of course I did, and I was shocked and cried, but I remember feeling this weird, heightened emotion. It felt like my blood was ice. I didn't go out and thank god for my life, I only realized how this is life, and that could've easily been me if I was in a bad situation.

Well- here I am in a bad situation, and I have realized even more that these things are life. Life is suffering and pain and violence unless you're one of the lucky brats that manages to have a normal life or a normally functioning brain.

I don't enjoy gore. Infact I hate it, but I feel like its the only thing keeping my brain in check from going crazy. Anyone else feel a similar way?

 

[Higurashi415]

You have no idea how much this resonates with me.
I was very very young when I watched gore videos for the first time, felt like a drug in the sense that it seriously altered my state of mind. I used it as a sort of coping mechanism when reality was too much to bear for my stupid brain.
And I still do, kind of.

On a bit of a positive note, it helped me find out a lot of things. There used to be a bit of relatively serious journalism on bestgore, it made me realize how bad some places really are. Hearing about it is one thing, seeing it is another.

 

[Thomas Rekowicz]

I use a lot of gore video's mainly to make myself at peace with death IT is easier to bear thinking about dying when you can see death and make IT familiar to you.

 

[Michelstaedter]

I was thinking about this recently. I was thinking that gore is disgusting, that there are people who enjoy the pain of others and that kind of thing is actually a reflection of what humanity has been throughout its history; blood and violence.
I have no more words, just what I have seen, it is out of curiosity, however beyond thinking that I am alive and that I will not have such a tortuous life or suffer an accident like the surreal ones that are seen in that kind of videos, it makes me feel more miserable, because then I think that we are on top of billions of corpses and our current lives are the result of that. Many had to die for us to be alive... And that is very, very sad.

 

[KillingPain267]

Just as the title says. I spend so much time now trying to find a video that will soothe me, and the videos just get worse and worse. I don't wish I was suffering like the people in the videos, and I'm not saying that these videos are a cocomelon to me, but they're currently the only thing that actually makes me realize I'm existing.

I don't know, it does soothe me. I watch it when I'm bored.

but I remember feeling this weird, heightened emotion. It felt like my blood was ice. I didn't go out and thank god for my life, I only realized how this is life, and that could've easily been me if I was in a bad situation.

That's adrenaline

Well- here I am in a bad situation, and I have realized even more that these things are life. Life is suffering and pain and violence unless you're one of the lucky brats that manages to have a normal life or a normally functioning brain.

I don't know, I envy the victims in those videos when they die. Sure, getting beheaded is horrible, but they die pretty quickly when blood stops flowing to the brain. When their eyes stare blankly at nothing without expression, I envy them. I watch it to fantasize about being them the moment they die.

I don't enjoy gore. Infact I hate it, but I feel like its the only thing keeping my brain in check from going crazy. Anyone else feel a similar way?

I do enjoy it, not in a perverted way, but because it is reality and I enjoy knowing what's real and being able to analyze reality. I also enjoy learning about the human body. Finally, I also relate to what you say, that it kind of gets my mind straight. Like, I now know what suicide methods I want to avoid and what traffic accidents I never want to be involved in. I also hate the violence from a moral standpoint, since I'm a pacifist. I believe anyone who supports war should watch those Ukraine drone videos and see if they still support keeping to send millions into war. Also, watching that stuff and getting some adrenaline is a good little break from crying depression.