goodbye

[Azzy69]

Bus has just arrived. Time for me to depart. If you do not hear from me for 24 hours I have succeeded. Please do not ban my account until then. Goodbye ~

GODDAMN FAILURE

 

[NitriteAnatomy]

Godspeed and find peace.

 

[CyanideSoup]

I'm sorry to see you go, but I hope that you find peace.

 

[BlueWidow]

Good luck and peaceful travels.

 

[Moony21]

Safe travels

 

[Jean4]

Lots of love. I hope you find peace.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

May you find peace, my friend.

 

[C_F]

Have a peaceful ride over!

 

[Meant2Die]

Wishing you a peaceful journey home. Best of Luck

 

[Ghosted]

Peace be with you.

 

[MissNietzsche]

Gahhh, seriously, good luck

 

[Astral316]

Hoping your ctb is a smooth endeavor, bro.

 

[okaoki]

wish you a peaceful exit

 

[jgm63]

If you decide to proceed then wishing you a safe journey

 

[Time]

Safe travels, Azzy69. I hope that you find peace.

 

[digcircus]

I hops it's a peaceful journey for you.

 

[Azzy69]

Hi, I feel like such a failure. I could not go through with it. I opted for partial suspension and spent over 45 minutes in my wardrobe crying and contemplating my decision. Any tips on how to get over SI? I need to do this by next year.

 

[MissNietzsche]

It's okay..you're not a failure at all for this..

 

[charlie_z]

It's okay..you're not a failure at all for this..

Couldn't agree more strongly. Ending one's life is a monumental endeavor. You'll find your path, whatever that path may be.

 

[Sensei]

Hi, I feel like such a failure. I could not go through with it. I opted for partial suspension and spent over 45 minutes in my wardrobe crying and contemplating my decision. Any tips on how to get over SI? I need to do this by next year.

Then there's plenty of time to think this over. May I ask why it needs to be done by next year?

 

[Azzy69]

Then there's plenty of time to think this over. May I ask why it needs to be done by next year?

I do not want to see another year. I do not bring any happiness into the world so I do not see any point in continuing. I am ugly, a failure, worthless, dumb, and a loser.

 

[Dawgmom]

I don't know what your situation is but I've been on these kinds of forums for years. Honestly, YEARS, and I have been ready many times and yet, backed out. I don't think that's failure, it's just not being ready. And, I don't know if I'll ever be ready but I do know that this is the only forum I belong to where I post anything and feel like being a part of. Whether I'm depressed or not, I keep coming here. Before it was ASM where I met a lot of great people. Some did ctb and I expect others are here.

My point is, don't beat yourself up or think you're the only person to delay your ride. Many of us have and that's okay. You'll know when it's time and if not or while you're waiting there's this forum and people here that you can share with.

Peace.

 

[jgm63]

I do not want to see another year. I do not bring any happiness into the world so I do not see any point in continuing. I am ugly, a failure, worthless, dumb, and a loser.

Are you 100% sure those things are true, or have you just convinced yourself of them ?
Or perhaps you've never been around people who care enough to see the good things about you, and to affirm those to you, so you can build up some self-love ?
Are you sure there isn't ANYTHING good about you ?
Out of interest, do you have a job at the present time ?

 

[Sensei]

I do not want to see another year. I do not bring any happiness into the world so I do not see any point in continuing. I am ugly, a failure, worthless, dumb, and a loser.

I think everyone here thinks they are a failure. That doesn't necessarily mean it's the truth, though. Could it be that you hesitated because you doubt that your negative self-image is entirely true?

 

[Azzy69]

I don't know what your situation is but I've been on these kinds of forums for years. Honestly, YEARS, and I have been ready many times and yet, backed out. I don't think that's failure, it's just not being ready. And, I don't know if I'll ever be ready but I do know that this is the only forum I belong to where I post anything and feel like being a part of. Whether I'm depressed or not, I keep coming here. Before it was ASM where I met a lot of great people. Some did ctb and I expect others are here.

My point is, don't beat yourself up or think you're the only person to delay your ride. M many of us have and that's okay. You'll know when it's time and if not or while you're waiting there's this forum and people here that you can share with.

Peace.

Hi, thanks for your kind words.
I think it is a sense of failure many of us experience while we wait for the unknown. I thought my time was up, but my body thought otherwise.

Are you 100% sure those things are true, or have you just convinced yourself of them ?
Or perhaps you've never been around people who care enough to see the good things about you, and to affirm those to you, so you can build up some self-love ?
Are you sure there isn't ANYTHING good about you ?
Out of interest, do you have a job at the present time ?

They are true. If they weren't I would not be posting this, and I would have friends and a loving and caring family. I do not have a job. I am on disability and live with my mother and her new partner.

I think everyone here thinks they are a failure. That doesn't necessarily mean it's the truth, though. Could it be that you hesitated because you doubt that your negative self-image is entirely true?

I don't have a correct answer for that. I just know I am fucking terrified to kill myself but I need to do it.

 

[justwhy?]

Partial only works for happy go lucky impulsive types who hit hard times. Even full suspension is tough for most. You need a peaceful method, like most here. I've failed partial numerous times. The allure is its simplicity and seemingly gradated process but if you lack the right psychological makeup then it's just not right for you and you need to accept that and plan a bit more.
Best wishes to you.

 

[Dawgmom]

I do not want to see another year. I do not bring any happiness into the world so I do not see any point in continuing. I am ugly, a failure, worthless, dumb, and a loser.

Sorry to see you feeling so bad. But, I can't believe you're any of the things you think you are.

I do not have a job. I am on disability and live with my mother and her new partner.

I'm on disability too. It's a flipping trap. I've tried for almost 20 years to get off of it and FINALLY am just about there. I won't go into the difficulty and frustration I've had to go through but I'm 20 years older now and almost at retirement age. Regardless, though, I found a way off and that has help me a lot. I'm not telling you to do the same but I am trying to relate that I know how isolating being on it can be. I don't have friends or family either.

I don't have any magic words and I know you're not asking for them but I hope you find a way to feel better. Whether it's ending your life of living it a while longer.

 

[jgm63]

Hi, thanks for your kind words.
I think it is a sense of failure many of us experience while we wait for the unknown. I thought my time was up, but my body thought otherwise.

They are true. If they weren't I would not be posting this, and I would have friends and a loving and caring family. I do not have a job. I am on disability and live with my mother and her new partner.

I don't have a correct answer for that. I just know I am fucking terrified to kill myself but I need to do it.

ok, well we'll try to support you in whatever you decide you wish to do....
If you've firmly decided you intend to CTB, have you given thought to different methods ?
e.g. would SN perhaps be a better method than hanging ?

Disclaimer :
Please note that I strongly recommend against taking any action that would cause harm to yourself. Please seek assistance in any and every way possible to prevent harm coming to yourself. I do not encourage you or anyone to do anything that would cause harm to yourself or themselves. You alone must decide upon your actions and take full responsibility for them, and you should always favour seeking help and keeping yourself out of harm's way. I repeat, please seek assistance in any and every possible way to prevent harm coming to yourself.

 

[Manja]

Wow that's a hell of disclaimer

 

[6ixxy]

Wow that's a hell of disclaimer

Just covering his own back so he doesn't get into trouble for promoting suicide to him, was a thread posted yesterday about it