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Aphid

Aphid

Pentecad
Apr 30, 2026
169
been a long road yeah?
almost 21 years. shits been horrible. Almost 21 years of living as a monster, as a disgusting thing. this disgusting piece of shit. it's going to end now. it's exciting. my heart is fluttering, excited, happy, content, sick. the last synapses in my brain will fire and then I'll cease into the endless night. it's goodbye time.

Thank you, for all the memories, all the help all the talk all of it. those of you who kept me comfy in general chat, those of you who've responded to me, it's, time. time to stop being a failure, monster, disgusting thing. it's time to start doing the right thing. time for this to end.

thank you for everything.
If not in an hour. Tomorrow. thank you.
 
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tooafraidtodiez

Will CTB before my favorite show ends
Apr 29, 2026
264
May you find eternal peace
 
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bl33ding_heart

Borderline
Jun 24, 2025
655
I hope you find your peace aphid. ❤️
 
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darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,697
good luck, I hope you find peace ❤️‍🩹
 
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geepeedee

geepeedee

no future
Feb 24, 2026
305
what's your method? good luck either way.
 
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urgent

Why do I have to suffer unbearably! HELP PLEASE!
Dec 6, 2025
328
I wish you peace. I wish I could go now.
 
lpdsvm

lpdsvm

Experienced
Jan 11, 2026
276
I get you well. Having some of that feeling as well. Good luck.
 
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Aflame5926

Aflame5926

le tired
Apr 3, 2026
582
have a good journey. hope your soul get the rest its need and deserves man.

ps if you back out no shame in that
 
anxiousdweller

anxiousdweller

God Tier Anxious Fumblerrr
Apr 10, 2026
38
hope you find your peace buddy!
 
Yuri440

Yuri440

sUwUcidal
Jun 3, 2023
48
As always friend, I am here if you wanna chat. I'd hoped to catch you today to see how you were after yesterday. I hope things work out for you friend <3 I will miss you and I'm glad I got to talk to you this last week!
 
Phobia_DLW

Phobia_DLW

Member
May 18, 2026
81
been a long road yeah?
almost 21 years. shits been horrible. Almost 21 years of living as a monster, as a disgusting thing. this disgusting piece of shit. it's going to end now. it's exciting. my heart is fluttering, excited, happy, content, sick. the last synapses in my brain will fire and then I'll cease into the endless night. it's goodbye time.

Thank you, for all the memories, all the help all the talk all of it. those of you who kept me comfy in general chat, those of you who've responded to me, it's, time. time to stop being a failure, monster, disgusting thing. it's time to start doing the right thing. time for this to end.

thank you for everything.
If not in an hour. Tomorrow. thank you.
Hello, regardless of what you decide and when:

1) You don't seem to be the negative things you called yourself
2) I hope you achieve the peace you seek
 
interna

interna

Gone Tomorrow, Here Today
Dec 1, 2025
233
hope you're okay, safe travels <3
 
jisatsu88

jisatsu88

Member
Aug 22, 2024
23
been a long road yeah?
almost 21 years. shits been horrible. Almost 21 years of living as a monster, as a disgusting thing. this disgusting piece of shit. it's going to end now. it's exciting. my heart is fluttering, excited, happy, content, sick. the last synapses in my brain will fire and then I'll cease into the endless night. it's goodbye time.

Thank you, for all the memories, all the help all the talk all of it. those of you who kept me comfy in general chat, those of you who've responded to me, it's, time. time to stop being a failure, monster, disgusting thing. it's time to start doing the right thing. time for this to end.

thank you for everything.
If not in an hour. Tomorrow. thank you.
Sayonara, safe travels.
 
Aphid

Aphid

Pentecad
Apr 30, 2026
169
hi everyone, thank you for the well wishes. Wont be too long now, thank you for everything.
 
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peacefulexitplz

New Member
May 23, 2026
4
Regardless of what happens afterwards, I hope you find peace. Safe travels
 
red_cardinal

red_cardinal

pinniped enthusiast 🦭
May 25, 2026
41
May you find peace in your choice, no matter what it is. Good luck!
 
Le temps perdu

Le temps perdu

my pragmatics errors can kill me/A2 English (CEFR)
Dec 10, 2025
380
I hope you find peace you are search for, wish you have a safe journey
 
graveflower

graveflower

druidess
Nov 18, 2025
55
remember- if you manage to see this- you do still need to call sin.
but regardless, i wish you peace. it was a pleasure to know you for the time that i did. thank you for the kindness and warmth you extended to me. i'm sorry you were burdened with unjust weight- you didn't deserve it. i'll be thinking of you.
 
Bikishii

Bikishii

yeah yeah whatever
Mar 12, 2026
86
May you get the peace and freedom that you seek. I hope you are able to leave this world in serenity, and whatever comes next, I hope it treats you better than you've been treated here.

Godspeed. 🫂
 

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