We've all been there, JUST about to do it then you back out. I'm new here but if you're sticking around I'm sure the site will be better for it. If you decide to leave, nothing but respect and hope you find some rest.
Take your time, think things through. You've got your entire life to make sure this is what you want.
Curious. I've been told so many times that if you survive an attempt things seem to get better. Keep us updated on how you're feeling?