Goodbye thread (24 hour marathon )

[hearball]

bro now since we are Indian and talking in Hindi, i am feeling emotional for you that you gonna do this. Damn, sucks man! Talking in Hindi ignites 'apnaapan'.

haha . yeah .

 

[MiaBhai]

Your username reminds me of my cat every time, since 'hearball' sounds exactly like 'hairball'. And hairball is the stuff inside cat's gut that they sometimes vomit too.

can we talk in detail how your life went down? I wanna listen to your rant, only if you are comfortable

 

[hearball]

Your username reminds me of my cat every time, since 'hearball' sounds exactly like 'hairball'. And hairball is the stuff inside cat's gut that they sometimes vomit too.

can we talk in detail how your life went down? I wanna listen to your rant, only if you are comfortable

there's nothing really tbh . it's just i became more and more aware of the surroundings in how the world functions . and my preferred way of how the world should function is drastically different than how it currently does . and i am way too sensitive , that played a big part . and let's just say the final nails in my coffin were self induced to guilt trip myself to ctb .

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thinking about writing a note but don't know what to write in that ? some suggestions would be cool .

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small bursts of pain being observed by me , mainly around abdomen and sometimes other parts . fasting for 24 hours sure is interesting .

 

[hearball]

there's nothing really tbh . it's just i became more and more aware of the surroundings in how the world functions . and my preferred way of how the world should function is drastically different than how it currently does . and i am way too sensitive , that played a big part . and let's just say the final nails in my coffin were self induced to guilt trip myself to ctb .

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small bursts of pain being observed by me , mainly around abdomen and sometimes other parts . fasting for 24 hours sure is interesting .

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some calming pictures . The pixelated ones really make me feel good -----

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some calming pictures . The pixelated ones really make me feel good -----

reminds me of the pixelated retro games .

 

[before20]

Glad to see I didn't miss you.

The pictures remind me - will you be listening to anything while you die? If not, have a favorite song?

 

[hearball]

Glad to see I didn't miss you.

The pictures remind me - will you be listening to anything while you die? If not, have a favorite song?

i don't have a favourite song per say . the depend on my mood on that instant .

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some calming pictures . The pixelated ones really make me feel good -----

reminds me of the pixelated retro games .

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consumed very little water in the 24 hours and no food for the past 21 hours .

 

[human909]

I wish you good luck and hope you find the peace that you've been searching for.

 

[skar]

I hope you find the peace you need.. I'll be leaving soon as well. But I'll be here till you're here and even if you change your mind last minute, it's okay and you don't need to be hasty or pressurize yourself. Just be sure you're ready when you do it. I'm from India too bhai

 

[hearball]

i don't have a favourite song per say . the depend on my mood on that instant .

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consumed very little water in the 24 hours and no food for the past 21 hours .

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wrote the suicide note .

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wrote the suicide note .

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will visit the washroom for number 2 . so there might be a delay .

 

[AnotherSadDay]

Hi hearball,
Theres no rush to ctb today. If youre not completely sure about your decision, you can wait another day. The sn isnt going anywhere

 

[zerocontrol]

Sorry to see you go. I hope you'll feel better on the other side if that's what you truly desire

 

[billie]

i hope you find peace

 

[hearball]

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wrote the suicide note .

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will visit the washroom for number 2 . so there might be a delay .

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done with washroom .

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done with washroom .

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have gathered everything i need .
a bucket in case of vomiting , supplementary meds , sn , 3 glasses , a bottle of water , a bed table , a scale , a wooden spoon and a piece of paper .

 

[opheliaoveragain]

nothing but love, wishing you relief.

glad I caught this in time, sending hugs your way.

we're here with you.

 

[MiaBhai]

my preferred way of how the world should function is drastically different than how it currently does . and i am way too sensitive , that played a big part

bro, this is one of the big reasons for me to ctb too. I just know world is too cruel for heart like mine (and prolly yours too) and it's not worth living in such world.

the depend on my mood on that instant

can i recommend a song? and have you been in romantic love ever?

 

[hearball]

bro, this is one of the big reasons for me to ctb too. I just know world is too cruel for heart like mine (and prolly yours too) and it's not worth living in such world.


can i recommend a song? and have you been in romantic love ever?

no . i will be listening to heart pumping music .

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done with washroom .

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have gathered everything i need .
a bucket in case of vomiting , supplementary meds , sn , 3 glasses , a bottle of water , a bed table , a scale , a wooden spoon and a piece of paper .

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filled the 3 glasses (dimensions - height 10 cm , radius - 3 cm ) to 3 cm height .

 

[dexdbxtchthewxtch]

Wishing you nothing but luck from here forward!

 

[opheliaoveragain]

no . i will be listening to heart pumping music .

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filled the 3 glasses (dimensions - height 10 cm , radius - 3 cm ) to 3 cm height .

lighting a candle for you. fly high.

 

[sweetcreep]

good luck, i hope you find peace without any pain. and i hope you got to do something you enjoyed before today.

 

[MiaBhai]

heart pumping music

wow, what kind of music is that? suggest me some song of such kind

 

[hearball]

no . i will be listening to heart pumping music .

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filled the 3 glasses (dimensions - height 10 cm , radius - 3 cm ) to 3 cm height .

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have taken out 3 batches of sn . don't know the exact values but they look like they are somewhere around the target .

 

[hained]

I wish you luck, relax and painless travel. If you need anythin were here for you
Much love

 

[hearball]

wow, what kind of music is that? suggest me some song of such kind

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have taken out 3 batches of sn . don't know the exact values but they look like they are somewhere around the target .

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sorry for the delay , we will start in 12 minutes , that is , your next hour / hour hour mark, depending upon where you live .





interesting times ahead .

 

[hained]

LOVE the music you choose

 

[pAApY]

Bro! you should firstly think about it carefully. Give yourself sometime... we all are here anytime you need us..

 

[hearball]

LOVE the music you choose

i had other heart pumpers that i used listen awhile back but these were recent so familiarity for the body is what i am going for .

Bro! you should firstly think about it carefully. Give yourself sometime... we all are here anytime you need us..

i think 4 years is a long time .

 

[tryingtoquietdown]

I'm so sorry that this is the path you were led down. I understand what you mean when you talk about the world not working the way you thought it should. It's cruel and impossible to stomach. I hope you find some relief.

I saw one of the songs you posted was from an anime. Do you like watching anime or reading manga? If you do, do you have any suggestions?

 

[hearball]

I'm so sorry that this is the path you were led down. I understand what you mean when you talk about the world not working the way you thought it should. It's cruel and impossible to stomach. I hope you find some relief.

I saw one of the songs you posted was from an anime. Do you like watching anime or reading manga? If you do, do you have any suggestions?

sss class revival hunter is good .
dungeon reset was also good .
i love a story where they do kingdom building .

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sorry for the delay , we will start in 12 minutes , that is , your next hour / hour hour mark, depending upon where you live .





interesting times ahead .

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ding ding ding ---- 2 * 500 mg paracetamol have been engulfed ----- ding ding ding

sss class revival hunter is good .
dungeon reset was also good .
i love a story where they do kingdom building .

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ding ding ding ---- 2 * 500 mg paracetamol have been engulfed ----- ding ding ding

i will hug the bucket in case i vomit . i will be leaning and sitting on my bed , next to a wall .

 

[tryingtoquietdown]

sss class revival hunter is good .
dungeon reset was also good .
i love a story where they do kingdom building .

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ding ding ding ---- 2 * 500 mg paracetamol have been engulfed ----- ding ding ding






i will hug the bucket in case i vomit . i will be leaning and sitting next on my bed next , to a wall .

Those sound cool! I'll definitely take a look at them. I haven't watched a good anime in years :)

Make sure to stay comfortable. Wrapping yourself in a heavy blanket or pillows can help to keep yourself calm and relaxed.

 

[hearball]

Those sound cool! I'll definitely take a look at them. I haven't watched a good anime in years :)

Make sure to stay comfortable. Wrapping yourself in a heavy blanket or pillows can help to keep yourself calm and relaxed.

not anime .

i will . i have my blanket with me as well .

sss class revival hunter is good .
dungeon reset was also good .
i love a story where they do kingdom building .

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ding ding ding ---- 2 * 500 mg paracetamol have been engulfed ----- ding ding ding






i will hug the bucket in case i vomit . i will be leaning and sitting on my bed , next to a wall .

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ding ding ding ---- took 8 * 4 mg of ondasteron tablets ------ ding ding ding
my spotify liked songs playlist . another 50 songs were added to my other account but i don't have the time to add them .