well, i'm officially at the hotel and my final meal is en route.
i am a 26 year old man. i am bisexual. i love animals and nature. there are many interesting things about me, but what i want to be remembered for is for my ability to love under any circumstances. up until my final moments, despite everything that's ever happened to me, i am full of love whether or not it is always returned.
i have greatly appreciated having this space for the last few weeks to vent my thoughts without having to censor myself. i heavily contribute that to the peace i have with this decision, because i know there are in fact people out there that won't view me as some sort of self absorbed monster. it still hurts to think about the pain this is going to bring to people. it still hurts to know i am going to be alone when i pass. i feel my own pain with this decision, but none of that compares to the pain associated with continuing to live.
my reasons for coming to this decision are personal to me, but i will share that they are largely related to mental health. i did my best to make it work and to live a life without torment, but my brain simply isn't wired that way. if the attempt fails, or the one miraculous thing that i've decided could change my mind happens, i will be back with an update, but those are both extremely unlikely. like, extraordinarily unlikely.
thank you all again. i hope each of you finds peace, however that looks for you.
i am a 26 year old man. i am bisexual. i love animals and nature. there are many interesting things about me, but what i want to be remembered for is for my ability to love under any circumstances. up until my final moments, despite everything that's ever happened to me, i am full of love whether or not it is always returned.
i have greatly appreciated having this space for the last few weeks to vent my thoughts without having to censor myself. i heavily contribute that to the peace i have with this decision, because i know there are in fact people out there that won't view me as some sort of self absorbed monster. it still hurts to think about the pain this is going to bring to people. it still hurts to know i am going to be alone when i pass. i feel my own pain with this decision, but none of that compares to the pain associated with continuing to live.
my reasons for coming to this decision are personal to me, but i will share that they are largely related to mental health. i did my best to make it work and to live a life without torment, but my brain simply isn't wired that way. if the attempt fails, or the one miraculous thing that i've decided could change my mind happens, i will be back with an update, but those are both extremely unlikely. like, extraordinarily unlikely.
thank you all again. i hope each of you finds peace, however that looks for you.
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