GOODBYE ctbing within the next hour or two

[hauntyoueveryday]

Hi, i am zach. I am going to CTB tonight with carbon monoxide. I am home alone until tomorrow evening, so I will seal myself in the garage and run both my car (a 1994 bmw 325i) and my dad's project car, which is a 1962 corvette. Since both cars are over 30 years old, I am pretty sure they will emit a lot of CO, and i am also pretty sure my dad's corvette does not have a catalytic converter.

I will be getting drunk, taking a lot of benadryl and taking a bunch of my old zoloft pills. I know ODing is a non-method, but I am not using it to die, it's only for SI, so dont be annoying in the comments. I feel super guilty for using my dad's project car like this, I know how much he loves it. I will leave a note for whoever finds me saying to be gentle with it. I will keep you guys updated as I go!

 

[Abandoned Phantom]

Wishing that your soul finds peace. Farewell friend. Sorry that this world has brought you to this.

 

[LakeMungoGirl]

Goodbye—I hope you're able to rest easy.

 

[soul2realm]

...loss for words. Just god bless you and loads of love and blessings.

 

[otium]

I hope you find peace. Farewell.

 

[dalemar]

I hope you can find the peace you deserve and you have a peaceful journey!

 

[hauntyoueveryday]

Working on unwrapping/ swallowing the pills and alcohol rn. I am feeling weirdly paranoid, but calm? Like my home phone rang and I jumped out of my skin, and my house feels dangerous and threatening, like ive never been here before

 

[cat0boy]

you're lucky, i hope it goes well ;P

 

[kufajoy]

Hope everything goes well and you find peace

 

[tiredcatboy]

I hope you can find peace, friend.

 

[X-sanguinate86]

May you find peace.

 

[hauntyoueveryday]

I have everything prepared, I am going to go to my garage soon. I don't know how to feel, like I am scared but not? It is very cold on the east coast right now (where I am), which means my garage will also be, which annoys me but whatever. I'll update again soon
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[Realog11]

i hope you find peace

 

[dalemar]

I have everything prepared, I am going to go to my garage soon. I don't know how to feel, like I am scared but not? It is very cold on the east coast right now (where I am), which means my garage will also be, which annoys me but whatever. I'll update again soon
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Cant you just wear a jacket?
I guess the engine temperature will warm up the garage a bit as well.

 

[sweetdrowning]

Take care, I hope you find peace.

 

[hauntyoueveryday]

I powered up the car, i'll see you guys

I can't lie i'm fucking scared, probably is totally placebo but I feel light hewded and my hands are tingling

 

[TheEmptyVoid]

I powered up the car, i'll see you guys
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I can't lie i'm fucking scared, probably is totally placebo but I feel light hewded and my hands are tingling

Hope you find peace, yeah being lightheaded is normal from lack of oxygen, tingling too, try not to panic (ONLY if you really want to die), anyways I hope you find eternal peace when you die, no more suffering, ever again.

 

[kingzen]

May you find peace goodbye friend

 

[hauntyoueveryday]

I keep turing the car off fuck SI, but I lost a lot of feeling in my right arm before I did

 

[vyvanceandvodka]

i'm sorry friend if you don't feel ready that's okay too. i hope you find peace either way

 

[darksouls]

good luck,
I wish you the best, I hope you find relief from suffering

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

If you go through with this, I hope you find peace.
If you decide not to, you are always welcome here.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Did you turn the car off? Sending love and hugs if you are still here

 

[kufajoy]

I keep turing the car off fuck SI, but I lost a lot of feeling in my right arm before I did

Take it easy. Times will come again. Hope you feel better until then.

 

[spero_meliora]

Take it easy, as others have said. If tonight's not the night, that's okay, and you have people here who will stay with you in this thread.

 

[iveseenfootage]

Whatever happens, I hope you find peace.

 

[hienapospolita]

Wow, cool cars. Have you driven the vette? Hope you get well soon!

 

[bridge17]

rest well

 

[Implicit_Submission]

wishing you the peace you're looking for. it's okay if you aren't ready yet. hugs if you're still here.