Goodbye and thanks for all the fish.

[Dreadle]

I'm all ready to CTB now, only thing is to take the 1,4B.

Thank you for all the resources and support on this forum. It's been wonderful to be able to express myself without judgement and prejudice. I'm sorry that the world has been cruel to you all, I wish you all the best.

I'm building my courage to take the last step. I feel lonely.... I will keep posting on this tread if anyone is around. I've passed on my final messages cryptically so people don't catch on, even though I want them by my side.

 

[Yakamoz]

Safe travels!

 

[toofargone6969]

I'm sorry you feel lonely. We are all here feeling the same feelings you do that led you to this. Take care and hopefully your journey is peaceful with the BDO.

 

[EternalShore]

See ya~!! Praying for you :)
and yeahhh, loneliness is the absolute worst! >_< I just wish people ever truly cared about others for once in their lives. :(

 

[just_so_done]

I'm sorry your struggles brought you to this point but I hope you have a peaceful journey. Know that you're not alone, this community is here with you

 

[Crono]

Rest in peace.

 

[AngelTears]

Bless you, Dreadle. Thank you for being here with us. If you change your mind, we'll still be here for you.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Sorry to see you go. May you be free from this horrible world. Rest well.

 

[Dreadle]

That's it, I've done it, I've taken 1,4B rectally. I'll keep you updated.

It's diluted with water so I don't burn myself.

I've had some alcohol so I know that it might be slow as both of them metabolize in the liver. But I needed the courage

 

[EternalShore]

I wish more could have been done but may you find your peace~ :) Do call if you have second thoughts while waiting though.

 

[Dreadle]

Body is doing a whole load of gurgling noises, I think I might have accidentally added some air otherwise the diazepam is keeping me calm

 

[Letgo]

Wish you peace and rest. Thinking of you.

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Godspeed. May you find the peace you deserve.

 

[KarmaBus]

Safe travels

 

[Dreadle]

I feel myself getting more and more tired. Not sure if it's the alcohol or if it's working

 

[Letgo]

Did you lie down?

 

[Dreadle]

Did you lie down?

No, I'm sitting up watching my favourite film. Should I?

 

[Letgo]

No, I'm sitting up watching my favourite film. Should I?

Whichever makes you feel more comfortable.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Thinking of you... Wishing you peace.

 

[Dreadle]

Everything is slowing down. I'm feeling loopy, can't focus, very tired.

 

[Letgo]

How are you?

 

[Dreadle]

How are you?

I'm feeling like I'm going to pass out in a bit. It's difficult to keep my eyes open.

I feel very calm and relaxed, euphoric almost.

 

[Letgo]

Praying for you.

 

[EternalShore]

my favourite film

And what is that film anyways? :)

 

[Dreadle]

And what is that film anyways? :)

One of them is Moana, because of the strong female heroine.

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Moana is a beautiful movie to watch as one of your last.

 

[EternalShore]

ahh, a very nice movie! ^_^
"What can I say except you're welcome~!"

 

[dianxia]

sending you hugs rest well

 

[tirednorthernsoul]

I wish you peace and rest.

 

[AngelTears]

One of them is Moana, because of the strong female heroine.

How are you feeling?