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odazai

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Aug 23, 2023
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Hi guys ♥️

I just finished testing my sn and everything is ready and took pills and I'm Fasting right now ready to drink sn in 6 hours when house is empty


I wanted to say goodbye to everyone here
And thank you for your amazing tips and support ❤️

From three days ago I was so nervous but now I'm calm (but I have bpd so it changes alot)
Please wish me luck so I can stay calm when I'm gonna take the drink and be able to ctb successfully



I hope everyone here get a happy ending ♥️


Love you all so much♥️♥️♥️
 
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suicidepanda

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delightfully dreadful
Sep 25, 2023
39
I wish you strength, and eternal peace my friend.
 
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avaruus

avaruus

loser · gone very soon
Aug 17, 2022
559
farewell, i hope you find peace!! :)
 
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hevlalab

hevlalab

Take me back in time
Sep 14, 2023
125
Aw I'm so sorry to hear that you're going!!! I wish you so much luck and peace. See you on the other side pal :)
 
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DeathSleep

DeathSleep

Unstable Potato
May 25, 2023
282
Best of luck. I hope you find peace.
 
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ipmanwc0

ipmanwc0

Doctor Sleep
Sep 15, 2023
638
good luck. cu on the other side
 
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AlouA

looking for CTB partner in SEA
Sep 19, 2023
121
I wish you the best of luck fellow. I hope it works out and you'll have the freedom you're wishing for ❤️‍🩹🫂.. See u on the other side.
also will you be giving updates on this thread?
 
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odazai

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Aug 23, 2023
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I wish you the best of luck fellow. I hope it works out and you'll have the freedom you're wishing for ❤️‍🩹🫂.. See u on the other side.
also will you be giving updates on this thread?
I'm just going to update if I fail other than that no but if you are interested in anything I can update
 
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Innereye

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Know thy self
Jan 18, 2020
303
how do you "test" SN?
 
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azo

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Jun 20, 2023
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Wishing you a peaceful departure 🫂
 
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locked*n*loaded

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Apr 15, 2022
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May you reach the peace you seek.
 
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Gonnerr

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Mar 12, 2023
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Good luck, I hope you escape peacefully.
 
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Sep 24, 2023
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I wish you a happy trip. If you think carefully and make your decision, I can't really stop you. It's your body and your dreams. I'm really sorry for what you're going through. If you have something to say, we really hear you.
 
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Ashe

Born to suffer for others
Sep 20, 2023
112
Best of luck and may you find peace in your journey ahead.
 
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Renee

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Sep 14, 2023
52
I am so sad to see you go even though we met just now. Having been suicidal off and on for 36 years I totally understand and I hope you find the peace you are looking for, Hugs, Renee
 
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whisperjump

whisperjump

i am the thing i've tried to kill over 8 times now
Sep 9, 2023
28
make sure you're completely calm, and if you have any second thoughts.. TURN BACK AND CALL THE POLICE! i hope it's painless and easy, i'll see you in your eternal slumber, my friend! :heart::heart::heart::heart:
 
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Sep 24, 2023
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I really wish you all the best and a good trip. It seems like you made your decision and thought well
 
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Minsu

Mage
Jan 17, 2023
554
Hope you find peace. I'm sending you warm hugs 🤗
 
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ctb7767

Member
Dec 4, 2022
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I'm just going to update if I fail other than that no but if you are interested in anything I can update
if you think you're up to it, give us an update on how the experience is
 
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bluebus

meet me at the back of the blue bus
Aug 5, 2023
426
I'm sorry that it's come to this but I completely understand. You don't deserve to suffer as you have, and I'm sorry that you've had to. I hope you can find peace and freedom from your pain. Wishing you all the best. Love, bb
 
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Anon7b8

Experienced
Aug 21, 2023
265
Safe travels stranger! Wish you find the peace and rest you deserve.
 
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SVEN

SVEN

I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
2,803
Best wishes for strong resolve, a successful journey and sweet, gentle sleep. You know we support you in your choice.
 
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outlook56

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Sep 24, 2023
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We really appreciate you spending your last time with us. We love you
 
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odazai

Member
Aug 23, 2023
50
We really appreciate you spending your last time with us. We love you
I love you too♥️
Guys your messages made me feel so happy and less lonely I'm in a good mood (hope it stays)
I love you all and thanks for your kind words it really helps 💕
I hope you all the best ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️
 
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kipper

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Mar 11, 2023
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whatever happens, i wish you the best. goodnight
 
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Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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Farewell, I wish you the best of luck with your plans, I hope that you find the freedom you search for.
 
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I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
Apr 3, 2023
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Go well, stay calm, know you are thought of.
 
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ctb7767

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I wonder if he's gone
 
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