Inferdan
Meeting the first minor relapse after recovery
- Nov 3, 2019
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I'm sorry, should've told everyone in the forum this a couple of weeks ago, but I believe that I have fully recovered from ctb. I don't think about it anymore, and no longer feel as down and horrible as I used to. I still suffer the pains of life, and it's torturous on many levels at times, but I'll be living now. Left school early and heading to uni, got myself a new, better sharehouse (with a better flatmate), and pushing myself to start drawing again (which I've drawn two so far, attached them). I feel the gauntlet that I've been and still going through that is my life was, however detrimental and scarring, something that I can learn and grow from; to be a better person than what I would've been without it. I'll have to try harder to connect on that level since I'm no longer feeling void and empty, but at least I can understand and help people, unlike the ignorant ones who live lives where they cry over a pair of Nike's. I'm still going to be around here, since, as mentioned, I may be recovered but still need a place to vent from time to time, since I'm still stressing, but I can deal with it now. I've beaten it. I've escaped the endless dark maze. Climbed back out the spiral down. If anyone ever needs to talk, I'll be here, and I'll do my best to discuss it so you have a better idea of it, or just need to spill it all out. Hugs for everyone, and may you all find what you want, need, and deserve. May you smile today, and things get better, however small that change be. And don't lose sight of the little things, since that's truly all we really have left, right?
Until later, everyone :)
Until later, everyone :)