Inferdan

Inferdan

Meeting the first minor relapse after recovery
Nov 3, 2019
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I'm sorry, should've told everyone in the forum this a couple of weeks ago, but I believe that I have fully recovered from ctb. I don't think about it anymore, and no longer feel as down and horrible as I used to. I still suffer the pains of life, and it's torturous on many levels at times, but I'll be living now. Left school early and heading to uni, got myself a new, better sharehouse (with a better flatmate), and pushing myself to start drawing again (which I've drawn two so far, attached them). I feel the gauntlet that I've been and still going through that is my life was, however detrimental and scarring, something that I can learn and grow from; to be a better person than what I would've been without it. I'll have to try harder to connect on that level since I'm no longer feeling void and empty, but at least I can understand and help people, unlike the ignorant ones who live lives where they cry over a pair of Nike's. I'm still going to be around here, since, as mentioned, I may be recovered but still need a place to vent from time to time, since I'm still stressing, but I can deal with it now. I've beaten it. I've escaped the endless dark maze. Climbed back out the spiral down. If anyone ever needs to talk, I'll be here, and I'll do my best to discuss it so you have a better idea of it, or just need to spill it all out. Hugs for everyone, and may you all find what you want, need, and deserve. May you smile today, and things get better, however small that change be. And don't lose sight of the little things, since that's truly all we really have left, right?
Until later, everyone :)
 

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Great news! Very happy for you. Keep at it...:hug:
 
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jgm63

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We shall miss your cryptic puzzles : ¬ )

:heart:
 
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Meowkin

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I'm really happy for you and wish you all the best.
And nice cat. Lol
 
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I'm sorry, should've told everyone in the forum this a couple of weeks ago, but I believe that I have fully recovered from ctb. I don't think about it anymore, and no longer feel as down and horrible as I used to. I still suffer the pains of life, and it's torturous on many levels at times, but I'll be living now. Left school early and heading to uni, got myself a new, better sharehouse (with a better flatmate), and pushing myself to start drawing again (which I've drawn two so far, attached them). I feel the gauntlet that I've been and still going through that is my life was, however detrimental and scarring, something that I can learn and grow from; to be a better person than what I would've been without it. I'll have to try harder to connect on that level since I'm no longer feeling void and empty, but at least I can understand and help people, unlike the ignorant ones who live lives where they cry over a pair of Nike's. I'm still going to be around here, since, as mentioned, I may be recovered but still need a place to vent from time to time, since I'm still stressing, but I can deal with it now. I've beaten it. I've escaped the endless dark maze. Climbed back out the spiral down. If anyone ever needs to talk, I'll be here, and I'll do my best to discuss it so you have a better idea of it, or just need to spill it all out. Hugs for everyone, and may you all find what you want, need, and deserve. May you smile today, and things get better, however small that change be. And don't lose sight of the little things, since that's truly all we really have left, right?
Until later, everyone :)
You made me smile
 
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Inferdan

Inferdan

Meeting the first minor relapse after recovery
Nov 3, 2019
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Great news! Very happy for you. Keep at it...:hug:
That I will :) Once things settle, I'll get back to being active in the forums, so expect me there in a while :p
We shall miss your cryptic puzzles : ¬ )

:heart:
Oh, I'm not done, my friend. I'm not leaving SS, still have things I'm hurting over, and also want to help people here with my experience and recovered self. Once I'm back in the forums, I'll come up with something new for you all :)
I'm really happy for you and wish you all the best.
And nice cat. Lol
Thanks :hihi: Glad it turned out well. I hope you get what you're looking for, Meowkin, you and everyone else deserve peace and kindness. There's too much pain, and I'll do my best to alleviate it, for as long as you intend to stay. Until later, my friend :)
You made me smile
I'm glad I was able to :happy: here if you ever need to talk
 
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That I will :) Once things settle, I'll get back to being active in the forums, so expect me there in a while :p

Oh, I'm not done, my friend. I'm not leaving SS, still have things I'm hurting over, and also want to help people here with my experience and recovered self. Once I'm back in the forums, I'll come up with something new for you all :)

Thanks :hihi: Glad it turned out well. I hope you get what you're looking for, Meowkin, you and everyone else deserve peace and kindness. There's too much pain, and I'll do my best to alleviate it, for as long as you intend to stay. Until later, my friend :)

I'm glad I was able to :happy: here if you ever need to talk
ok, I'll keep an eye out : ¬ )
 
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Epsilon0

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Thank you for the update!

Good luck on your way to recovery, @Inferdan and may the ups be more frequent and last longer than the downs.

Love your cat drawing!
 
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Inferdan

Meeting the first minor relapse after recovery
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Thank you for the update!

Good luck on your way to recovery, @Inferdan and may the ups be more frequent and last longer than the downs.

Love your cat drawing!
I've fully recovered, but thank you for your words :) I got the ups and downs still, though, but that's just because life isn't a stroll in a sunny field, but I'm dealing with it all well and majorly ok with it all, so don't worry, I'm doing fine :hihi: Again, thank you, Epsilon, and I hope things go in your favour, whichever direction you choose to go in.

And thank you, hehe :p
 
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Brick In The Wall

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Very good news my friend! I'm always happy to see people recover. I wish you the best in your endeavors, keep up the good progress!
 
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Inferdan

Meeting the first minor relapse after recovery
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Very good news my friend! I'm always happy to see people recover. I wish you the best in your endeavors, keep up the good progress!
Thank you :) I will, don't worry, Brick. You're one of the first people I talked to here, and I won't ever forget you welcoming me here. I hope you get to where you want to be soon, whatever that is :))
 
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Sep 18, 2018
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hey inferdan, glad to hear you're feeling better.

hope you can continue posting in recovery about you're journey in recovering and feeling better to motivate individuals including myself!!

hope things continue to get better for you.

take care.
 
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The Temporary Problem is Life
Oct 24, 2019
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Congrats! It's amazing when you don't feel empty.
 
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EY!! FABULOUS!! :heart:
made me happy to read that! tnx for sharing mate!
love your drawings! keep up the good work!
im excited for you ss bro!
x
 
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You are so talented. The world is blessed to experience your creativity. Thanks for being you.
 
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Aug 20, 2019
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I'm sorry, should've told everyone in the forum this a couple of weeks ago, but I believe that I have fully recovered from ctb. I don't think about it anymore, and no longer feel as down and horrible as I used to. I still suffer the pains of life, and it's torturous on many levels at times, but I'll be living now. Left school early and heading to uni, got myself a new, better sharehouse (with a better flatmate), and pushing myself to start drawing again (which I've drawn two so far, attached them). I feel the gauntlet that I've been and still going through that is my life was, however detrimental and scarring, something that I can learn and grow from; to be a better person than what I would've been without it. I'll have to try harder to connect on that level since I'm no longer feeling void and empty, but at least I can understand and help people, unlike the ignorant ones who live lives where they cry over a pair of Nike's. I'm still going to be around here, since, as mentioned, I may be recovered but still need a place to vent from time to time, since I'm still stressing, but I can deal with it now. I've beaten it. I've escaped the endless dark maze. Climbed back out the spiral down. If anyone ever needs to talk, I'll be here, and I'll do my best to discuss it so you have a better idea of it, or just need to spill it all out. Hugs for everyone, and may you all find what you want, need, and deserve. May you smile today, and things get better, however small that change be. And don't lose sight of the little things, since that's truly all we really have left, right?
Until later, everyone :)
Oh joy! Go on, live the life you always dreamed of!
 
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Jun 28, 2020
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I am so glad to see a person who has found the will and answers to get past the pain and move on in their existence. ^_^
Wishing all the best from here and nothing but smiles!
Loving the art too btw! :)
 
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Inferdan

Meeting the first minor relapse after recovery
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hey inferdan, glad to hear you're feeling better.

hope you can continue posting in recovery about you're journey in recovering and feeling better to motivate individuals including myself!!

hope things continue to get better for you.

take care.
I will, hehe :p I'll do my best for all of you :) I'd like to thank you and the other staff members for giving me and others this space of freedom, since this place is somewhat of a sanctuary for us; a place to dump anything we have and actually receive kindness and understanding from it. A place to support our decisions, and given advice on the choice we have made. So I want to thank the perseverance and consideration you and the other moderators for fighting for the forum and helping us. Really. Thank you.
I'll be here every step of the way for you and everyone else, Hassuu. Hugs, my friend, and until next time :)
 
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I am very happy to hear that. I wish you luck and happiness in your future :)
 
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Inferdan

Meeting the first minor relapse after recovery
Nov 3, 2019
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Congrats! It's amazing when you don't feel empty.
I still get my down moments like right now, feeling kinda empty, but I would say it's better than actually keeping my head above the water. Going to have to actually start exercising again, feel it'll fix that problem.
But yes, definitely is amazing when you don't feel empty, I agree. If you need to talk at all, I'm here :hihi:
EY!! FABULOUS!! :heart:
made me happy to read that! tnx for sharing mate!
love your drawings! keep up the good work!
im excited for you ss bro!
x
Haha, I'm glad you were happy from this :) thank you, my friend, I'll be sure to get better and make something of myself. Hopefully you are able to do the same someday, I'll help with whatever I can
You are so talented. The world is blessed to experience your creativity. Thanks for being you.
This is touching. You always were there to compliment and point out the good things in me, Oyoy. Thank you for all you've done for me and others. SS is blessed to have you here. And I'll do my best to get myself out there with my creativity, don't worry :) big hug, we'll talk again soon!
Oh joy! Go on, live the life you always dreamed of!
That I shall, my good sir. Onward and upward :hihi:
I am so glad to see a person who has found the will and answers to get past the pain and move on in their existence. ^_^
Wishing all the best from here and nothing but smiles!
Loving the art too btw! :)
I never had any answers. The will came spontaneously, and I took it. It was a lucky break, really, one day before my scheduled departure. But, well, I managed to build from that, and slowly put myself back together. I finished recovering a couple of weeks ago, and now everything is going smoothly, just a matter of maintain my place and keeping connections with others in check and not going too quiet, but not messaging them too much. I'm still in pain, but that's life, and I can actually deal with it now, so I'm all good :p I'll definitely be smiling more, though, which I guess is one of the better things from recovery :)) And thank you, haha. Hoping the best for your journey, whatever you're striving for :)
I am very happy to hear that. I wish you luck and happiness in your future :)
Thank you, randomz :) I'll be heading forward towards that, and hopefully I'll be able to help you all someday...hope everything is going well in the city for you, and you manage to find something you can do for yourself, my friend :hihi:
 
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