gonna ctb in three months and getting more nervous

[octopusinu]

been plotting to ctb since last year (or was it earlier this year) and i will be committing to my method by the end of the year. As someone who has hobbies, theres still so much more i want to do and create and learn, there will be stuff i will miss, and trying to rehome and give away my stuff (and worrying about what happens to my pets) is stressful. But on the other hand, I cannot handle another day of living in a body that causes mental and physical anguish everyday and the thought of education and work and any adult responsibility makes me extremely dreadful, its not a matter of if i want to ctb or not but rather that it is my only option. is it normal? do other people get nervous? either way once im dead there wouldn't be a brain that thinks and the suffering will stop so it doesn't matter i guess.

 

[HereIGoAgain24]

It's extremely normal to be anxious. It was the reason I ended up not CTB'ing 2 years ago, even though I had everything in place and felt completely hopeless.

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

Maybe you're not entirely ready then? Which is totally fine. It's ok to postpone.

In my case, I have such severe anhedonia, there is absolutely nothing else I want to do, despite the fact that I used to be a super active ambitious person with a thousand hobbies and interests.

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly understand feeling so tired of suffering in this painful existence, it's truly so cruel to me how people have to suffer so much. But anyway I wish you all the best.