Discussion Going to off myself today . Give me the last push .

[hearball]

Nothing . Just wanted to talk to some like minded people before taking the long journey into the abyss . Method - put a knife up my carotid artery . Let the situation get messy , just like my life .

 

[deletedaccount30982]

No one can give you the last push. But I will say your method has a very high chance of failure. As in a ~99% chance. I would advise against that as you're likely to just cause yourself more pain and suffering but survive.

 

[hearball]

No one can give you the last push. But I will say your method has a very high chance of failure. As in a ~99% chance. I would advise against that as you're likely to just cause yourself more pain and suffering but survive.

so what should i do ?

 

[DrinkyCrow]

so what should i do ?

First of all, you wanted to talk to someone before you go first anyway. So we could do that for now, until then you can also maybe do some more research and see if this is really the right method to try. I'm not trying to talk you out, just seconding the other opinion that I wouldn't risk trying it necessarily, if there are any other options.

 

[redkitsune98]

The pain is too high and your SI won't let you do that. I think you should research a better method

 

[hearball]

First of all, you wanted to talk to someone before you go first anyway. So we could do that for now, until then you can also maybe do some more research and see if this is really the right method to try. I'm not trying to talk you out, just seconding the other opinion that I wouldn't risk trying it necessarily, if there are any other options.

true . will try the carotid method today . if it fails , we move to the next .

The pain is too high and your SI won't let you do that. I think you should research a better method

pain can be easily discarded if thought of as inconvinience for the brain .

 

[lostintheloop]

I agree with the above that it's very risky method. And no one is going to give you a push. Ctb should only ever be your decision, if you're unsure then take a break to think, there's no rush. No shame in not being ready. It's the last decision you'll ever make so you have to be sure you're ready and fully thought it through.

 

[hearball]

true . will try the carotid method today . if it fails , we move to the next .

pain can be easily discarded if thought of as inconvinience for the brain .

like i have taken up some of the nihlistic notions and they certainltly ease the act of carrying out such processes.

I agree with the above that it's very risky method. And no one is going to give you a push. Ctb should only ever be your decision, if you're unsure then take a break to think, there's no rush. No shame in not being ready. It's the last decision you'll ever make so you have to be sure you're ready and fully thought it through.

yes , thank you for your advice .

 

[DrinkyCrow]

like i have taken up some of the nihlistic notions and they certainltly ease the act of carrying out such processes.

Carrying out? Maybe. But if anything goes wrong you end up being still alive, just with additional pain.

The only reason why i stop myself from doing anything impulsively. And no offense, you sound a little bit like you trying to rush things right now.

 

[hearball]

Carrying out? Maybe. But if anything goes wrong you end up being still alive, just with additional pain.

The only reason why i stop myself from doing anything impulsively. And no offense, you sound a little bit like you trying to rush things right now.

you are indeed correct .

 

[DrinkyCrow]

you are indeed correct .

If you wanna talk about what's wrong rn and don't wanna do it publicly, feel free to message me.

 

[maniac116]

Please reconsider!
There's a low chance of success & very high chance of suffering & disability.
I'm sorry life has brought you to this point