Help Going to hang in 2 days, is my setup alright?

[noiloone]

Can I ask what time in the night you attempted? Did you wait till like 3 am on a weekday like I'm going to do?

2 am. All I have to say it never attempt it in an open terrace.

 

[silentroom123]

2 am. All I have to say it never attempt it in an open terrace.

I'm attempting in my backyard, neighbors could see but it will be very dark and I'm wearing black clothing. You must have got spotted real quick for you to not have brain damage.

 

[tannhausers]

Hospitalized, discharged today. No brain damage thankfully.

PSH with my toes grazing the floor with the same setup as above (except I used two nooses at the same level and radius just to prevent mechanical failure). Used a cloth padding, held my breath and put a small piece of cloth to absorb spit (and to quieten), while not trying not to move my larynx (to swallow/vocalize). Physically, I did not feel any sort of discomfort except for my brain shutting down. Vision was the first to warp (within the first 5s), and then a persistent high-pitched hum in my ears was when I knew for sure my body was going limp. Adrenaline and SI were terribly high, but I was able to fight it with sheer willpower and faint in less than 10s. Mentally, the last few seconds felt terrible, like a deep, deep longing to live, a craving to reincarnate than fade to thoughtlessness. I had never even remotely felt such a thing whilst practising. That's the Amygdala I suppose...

I did it in the terrace (the anchor which I had linked previously) at night, but got spotted by a neighbour below. My dad was called, the rope was cut, and I was rushed to a hospital. Waking up felt very disorienting, but somehow I felt relieved of being pulled out of a world of gray. Thankfully, neither my brain nor my throat (not even a permanent scar thanks to partial) were damaged.

And finally, was able to muster the courage to tell dad about my cfs (an invisible illness; relentless fatigue, aches, brain fog/inflammation, whilst to the society I seemed stupid and lazy). Even though there isn't a cure so as to say, I'll hopefully get diagnosed officially for accomodations. I feel more confident now.

Never, ever going to attempt that again...

I'm glad you're alive—it was a real miracle that, with such perfect preparation, they were able to find and rescue you.

Thanks for all the information.

Get well soon, man.

 

[muziy]

2 am. All I have to say it never attempt it in an open terrace.

Do you plan to hang again? In a different spot?

 

[noiloone]

Do you plan to hang again? In a different spot?

Only if I exhaust every single possibility of living a *bearable* life with my chronic illness. So, not right away, not unless I have all the data to absolutely reach a firm consensus.